PeRfEcT BoNd

2008-11-20T07:48:00.000-08:00

thanks for removing it. you have to do everything and anything to kill and hurt me. and maybe the least you can do is to seek some basic consent from me. but i guess... you wanna get rid of me quick right? thanks. imperfect bond was never too right.

no it's not perfect now. perfect bond.

2008-06-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

i wanted to write something on captivated creations but i couldnt get in...

相遇太早
当我们再度相视微笑
成熟的心有一点苍老
许多的伤痛都已经忘掉
记忆里剩下的全是美好
你我都找到新的依靠
过去对错已不再重要
只是我们都清楚地知道
心里还有个划不完的句号
只怪你和我相爱得太早
对于幸福又了解的太少
于是自私让爱变成煎熬
付出了所有却让彼此想逃跑
上天让我们相遇得太早
对于缘分却又给得太少
才让我们只能陷在回忆中懊恼

歌词纠错相遇太早
当我们再度相视微笑
成熟的心有一点苍老
许多的伤痛都已经忘掉
记忆里剩下的全是美好
你我都找到新的依靠
过去对错已不再重要
只是我们都清楚地知道
心里还有个划不完的句号
只怪你和我相爱得太早
对于幸福又了解的太少
于是自私让爱变成煎熬
付出了所有却让彼此想逃跑
上天让我们相遇得太早
对于缘分却又给得太少
才让我们只能陷在回忆中懊恼

here i am back again

2006-05-08T08:51:00.000-07:00

wheehooo.. i told you i would come back.
just had that mid years hcl paper.it was rather okkay.. harlo i got a shock out of my life when i heard it had FOUR compre. i tot i gna die can... write until my hand have jing luan. but in the end it turned out pretty okkay , i have lyk 1/2 hr left for chang wen suo duan.. i was super happy, so i decided to rest and take a break until 1245 and start work. anw the paper ends at 1300. so i drank water, and take a small break , massaging my poor hand. and before i know, omg! it was lyk 1250? HAHA i began to be really really FRANTIC. so i fast fast do... rahh and i meant FAST FAST DO. bahhh okkay in the end i finished it at lyk 1255.. and left 5 mins to check my script. okkay... thank god:P
anw tmr is tues and guess wad... rahh i shall not say.
i shall be myself

k i shall blog

2006-02-24T18:02:00.000-08:00

my blog now is deaddd...really have no time to maintain it:( having so much work pile up right to my nose. having so much stress and problems :( rahhh anw if any four seven pple ever see this, our class tee is 14 bucks and is the hanes shirt. sorry changed it to black colour. rahhh... went to watch final destination 3 yesterday with my brother at jurong point. RAHH is NC 16. and guess wadd... i almost cant get in cus they wanted me to provide identification!!! Argh so that means i doesnt look like 16 for nuts! but heyy turning 16 this year lor. but in the end my brother was so pissed and din want to go back and take. and instead he took like my bank book with my nric number in it. and lalalal they went to call the manager ... luckily the manager let me in.and heyy they count you as 16 only when you have PASSED your bdae~! so hu is the nuts crank you told me they count by year. is WRONG lor. phew got in the cinema anw. the show was really fantastic. okkayermmmmm rather gruesome, but yar... you noe is kinda keep you in suspense and in the next second you are gone. bleaghx.
have to hand up my bsp source based qn on mon. somehow i really dun understand how i got that title but i aint really sure about guo gong nei zhan. but after reading, i kinda noe a bit. woots i wasnt paying the slightest attention to my teachers-_-. it happens to all. Maths, Physics, Biology, and language arts.but chem i m listening! rahhhh... i shall be guai and listen frm now on. oh went for the class committe meeting and urgh. is was sooooooo boring but gd thing is that they provided refreshment! and later proceeded to go for the monitress training, and you noe wadd? i only need to chair contact time like TWICE A TERM> and i m doing it like every week~!@!@!# rahhhhh gotta do agenda everyweek. ha! but nvrm enjoy doing it. anw is jjust half an hour a week. but come to think of it. wa i actually have soo much thing to say. and survived the past few weeks?
table tennis comps (nationals) is approaching... the vision to me is really near but i noe it cant be rushed. i really pray everyday man. we gootta do it as a team as a unit as nytt. my last year in ny. gotta do something. and here ms sabrina once asked me:" what if you all didnt get into top 4 in nationals?" it struck me so greatly and i rrealised that the scenario is so rrealistic so possible that BAh is causing me to contemplate. yar so wad exactly will i do?
frankly, hmmm
cmon. everyone. we surely can do it. yeah . you xin xin shi cheng gong de yi ban.
we gonna hold our hands together, shoulders to shoulders and march towards victory:)

screwed

2006-01-17T06:47:00.000-08:00

today is such a screwed day.
first thing... everyone had a false hope tat ms yeo aint coming, but in the end we saw the familiar figure stepping outside our classrm. and staring hard as usual at us.i was lyk -_- hurhur??? i tot she said she was sick. so heyy thats was the first baddd thingy early in the mrning. yeah man and maths lessons were never so scary.maybe pple get RAHH fired up when they are sick
and gosh we blardy hell gotta do this lijie ceyan lyk everything in one hr????
my goD you think i m genius arh
and gosh the climatx of today is actually special interest talk
everyone can be seen rotting away, stoning, dying and oh man dozing off luhh.. and muahah our class was late oops! and me and tiffany happens to sit together which leads into a whole deep shit of trouble. oh actually not luhh it was very entertaining sitting w her! hahah else i will be one of those dozing off or stonin. we were actually amusing ourselves w the speaker and it was indeed ENRICHING AND BENEFICIAL! everyone pls visit mr mayor's blog man!
so me and tiff happily entertained ourselves, chatting softly, i repeat myself we spoke really softly okk!! and bahh kaix i admit, maybe i couldnt control my luffters. my luffing hormones were jjust tooo strong!!!
so later our daRLING SABRINA called the three of us to stay back.
the conversation:
sab to tiff:" from now onwards, every assembly and special interest talk, you will wait for me and sit beside me! "
tiff:" hur * acts sorrowful and sniggers* erm okok
Sab to tiff:" go!"
------------------So ttiffany went out of the audi--------------------
and i was in the hyper mood smiling away... and OH MY GOSH OUT OF A SUDDEN!!@#@#@$@
she suddenly just use her finger and did the action when you point at some cockroach and screamed posture.
bahh
sab to me * almost screaming* with her evil looking eyes. i mus say it was VERY SCARY
" and YOU! you are the role model and you still talk! go and REFLECT!"
me: i was lyk so shocked and speechless... so i stood rooted to the ground. until she squeaked and roared:" GO OUT!"
and left shishuang and herself talking bout the normal cip thingy.
okokok i ran out, my heart was lyk thumping so hard luhh... frankly, i never felt so damn scared... i m telling you her sudden "YOU!" was damn impactful and it scared the hell out of me man! i think i gna faint. but nevermind i regained my composure:P and carried on the rest of the day.
and it was trng.
3-615pm and guess wad time i reached home? at 837pm!!!
you noe waddd... i tink i gna be screwed for all the tests, all the quizzes all the practicals, all the assignments all the SIAs when all the tests keeps piling up till my nose. MY GOSH. week six can just kill me! SAVE ME PLS!@#@#$#$$
and almost everyday i m reaching home at lyk 8pm. and i will always be so tired. no strength to carry on w my work.
someone pls help me man!
and the someone mus be myself. cus god only help those who help themselves.
yeah i m sure i can make it.
RAHHH

r 151 posts

2006-01-08T00:37:00.000-08:00

wheehoo i decided to let my blog take a long long long break. instead of terminating this life, i shall let it stay and kinda rot.. roars maybe one day when i wna speak this is could act as a platform to RAH fa xie/
sch started and i jus realised all these while i have been growing. i cant believe i m SEC FOUR now, vvery soon graduate from nanyang, and go hc. woots. i never thought of what i m gna be next time. and very soon, i maybe blogging again saying that i m working now. hahaz. bleaghx.
woots gna go KK hospital next fri , and most prob is at the class contact time slot. woops cant conduct class contact time liaox. hahah suddenly feel perhaps i m taking too many posts. i better let not myself get overloaded. as advised by sabrina. but rahh c'mon wadds sch life when you spend your days mugging and mugging non stop. and in the end have the brains but no qualities or wadsoeva to display your talents. ..
kaix i will jia you. pray that we can get into nationals this year esp b div. Wheeho for all you noe we both divisions get into nationals and wheehoo.. both get double champs!!! HAHAHAH! kaix maybe there would be one day luhh. one fine day. muAcks
and hahah i will find my talents ---seline and tifen:)

2005-12-26T01:04:00.000-08:00

heyy i gotta delete my blogg. wad do you think? RAHH

i m back

2005-12-11T22:05:00.000-08:00

wheeho i wanna go back china. i miss luo lao shi
i miss rm 511
bahh everything under wenhou yueqing sky
and yupps i got my new mp3 zen microphoto! green woots! pretty colour.
queued w tiff for one whole night. muahah

be back

2005-12-01T02:48:00.000-08:00

is 1st of dec. 14 days to my korkor bdae. 24 days to xmas! 4 days to coming back to spore:( boohoo--__--"' yesdae night was quite fun. chi high(wenzhou) went to our rm.. reputable rm 511, the damn messy and dirty wan. muahah we tong xiao for two nights le. omg growing eye rings.!. bwhahah watched house of wax and scared the hell out of myself. damn disgusting luhh some of the scenes. kaix but is quite farnie at some parts. muahah. oh yeah the first night watched harry potter. oh gosh is super boring can~! we played DRINKING GOGGLES invented by bei. and i drank lyk so much water pepsi till i needa go toilet lyk EVERY 5 MINS. oh yesh and hahah xiu ming and dingjie were sitting beside me and i can c they cant control themselves liaox. keep bie niao! bwhahah yepyep... played true and dare gossip. and wheho many sparkles in wenzhou worx! hiyahh gg back to sg soon. frankly dunno how i feeling right now. dun wanna face the harsh reality. gg back means lotsa stress and simply not me anwmore.. bahh mus meet up kaix fellow china buddies ( i mean the ny de) plus can meet w all the tchs de. haha and we can play drinking goggles again. and yepps i pity tiff. hahah giv minzhe more time luhh.. HAHAH. and yupps looking forward for the gathering:) and wheepidoo. i think i gna cry cry cry on the day i gna go back. oh yupps we just had our lian huan hui on wed. and i was acting as the gurl...:) the whole play was suspose to be touching and heart warming, HAHA but it turned out farnie and everyone started luffing. so i was lyk damn diff to get myself to cry at the last scence but in the end i tried my best. and i really feel sad luhh!! got myself into the show. margaret auntie said she was touched... and the beard person uncle who played table tennis w me was impressed:) yepps. thanks. i think the lian huan hui was a success to ny. dancing shavashava . our last time. sad xia. doing nanzhong quan . yepyep,
miss it all man! gimee you soul.
i giv you my heart.
--------lurve

stinko shit

2005-11-23T03:44:00.000-08:00

oh no my god... guess wad happened juz now... it was the most embarrassing moment of my life!!! I s****** juz now and when i open the door... WOAH!!! there came ultra toxic gas. i decided that i shouldnt descibe further.
thats it. leave it to your imagination! BUT I MUZ TELL YOU WADS THE OUTCOME ! tiffany and marilyn almost fainted but their tummies exploded!!! their noses are no longer functioning well ever again. They smell s*** wherever they go!!! haha! anw.. i m so sorry lin lao shi:) i can imagine you disinfecting your toilet now, and swearing not to use it for the rest of your trip here. Luckily you brushed your teeth alrdy, else i can predict that you would rather go one night w/t brushing your teeth than gg to tthe toilet.
muAHAHHAHAH
this is really FARNIE!
this trip is damn meaningful w my S***!
*cheers*
and heyy sorry for interupting your conversation.! dui bu qi.
i bet you couldnt stand it anymore thats y you left the room in hurry. and that was really ABRUPT! hahah i din noe my gas was that POWERFUL!@#>@$:>#$
frm now on, i will believe marilyn and tiffany sense of smell!
haha
*marilyn contributed to this entry*

save me

2005-11-06T01:23:00.000-08:00

oh man someone pls save me for nuts from this pain! gosh. i never knew it would turn out ike that. oh let me shoot this right everyone... if ou do something pls be RESPONSIBLE> and not lyk what the state i am landing now. absolutely bonkers in craziness of this oner gone situation. oh thatnks god i m gg to wenzhou tmr. and not sutck in this peanly cold and uncontrollable place. treat this as a whine treat this as a mourn but i really hate this. i have been rotting.. rotting, and let me repeat i mean PURE rotting. Oh fucking goodness i hate this so damn much. this is terrible!somepne pos save me frm, all these nightmares. is a sun afternoon. my feelings now are numbed and beyond description

2nd in china

2005-10-26T01:57:00.000-07:00

WHEEX hokkay i m in suzhou now!!! heyy pple go dwnload this software!!! http://www.skype.com/ can tok non stop fer free:D even in overseas

flown away

2005-10-24T00:28:00.000-07:00

kaix... tmr is the day<3 fer once i felt damn busy after school... having to clear the tables my books my files my everything single thing that belongs to me, and i just realise it is really quite a lot. and yupp... but i mamaged to throw lyk half a dozen of thing. but anyway... i m gettin really excited. but bahhh nid to do project*faints*
so yupps huggx zheng lao shi to day, and i think it was simply wen xin. she rubbed my chubby cheeks. oh man i begin to lurve her duo duo.
my luggage * coughs* gna be overweight i think. i still nid to save some space for shopping remember?
tmr 545am finally living in Simei make some use... HA! pple DUN SLEEP LUHH@@@#@ let's party tonite!
kaix six weeks. very long... everyone take care yeah?
lurve you lotsa. :)

it's over

2005-10-18T23:40:00.000-07:00

i hereby announce the verdict of my 2005 end of year results! Any 307 person who wants comfort, pls come here and you wil feel high again. but before i curse and swear, i wish to be frank and i thought passing my bsp was very lucky:) thou i was gg to fail and having a high percentage losing my scholarship, but phew i managed to scrap thru. but darling zheng lao shi say they gna review next yr luhh... oh my god i m really scared.
hiyahh anw next yr sec 4 le... dunno i can still survive not. BLeaghx
let me mourn first.
my eng was such a -_- to think i get the wadd reader digest pens award. and i almost fail my compo. BLWAGHX how can lyk that. but nvrm it's over
CHINESE :) :) :) zheng lao shi, i lurve you man! heyy seriously without her squeaky yet warming voice i would have slept in class and not done so well.
Maths= nothing to say. whole 307 do SO WELL. and although mine was okay, but under such circumstances, i really feel damn demoralised. somehow, i think i dun belong to this class. I would just be the baddie who pull dwn the whole class average mark.Urghhh... but in all my SIA saved me 96/100 :) so i m glad
physics= i m so sry mdm toh. i failed to even get ya your B3. booo
chem= heyy pple shall we sent our results slip to Mrs yeo HL??? -_-
bio!!@#@$$# this is the paper that i will react the most. MOST--_________-- i thought i was passionate and was doing well in my biology. i lurve the subject damn alot. put in darn much of effort, writing out notes that can be enough to be another text book, doing so many practices, ten years series, trying to memorize even when i am eeating bathing and walking, clearing my doubts now and then to be sure that i m confident for the paper. AND YET sighhh... all my efforts aren;t credited. and when the paper was given out, i still thought i will do well, and when i took a look i was appalled. i was controlling myself, promising myself not to cry, not a tear rolled dwn my cheeks. and thank you LSS, you put the score sheet on the visualiser, and guess wad my darling 307 class got TOP AGAIN. not that i m unhappy about that, but i just realised how low i stood how pathetic i was and how foolish of me to even think that i was doing well all along. i couldnt help it but break dwn. the marksheet was lyk so many As and darling me here simply could not make it. blahh maybe i really dun belong to this class in terms of results. the worst thing is i sent a msg to my mum and she was lyk:" dun worry, you have done your best and we are here to support you." that make me feels so guilty at that moment that not only did i let myself dwn but pple ard me. kaix this really spoils my days until today:'(
dun talk about my ss. you see the marksheet 307 highest AGAIN. and BWAHH i -_-"' save me man. shi wo tai ben hai shi bie ren tai cong ming?
this year is my screwed year. i tot i was doing well in first semester. sigh... but 2nd semester was simply a disaster.
but never mind, if there's is a will there's a way.
so i shall REFLECT and think of ways to pull my sawks up to my head and do better next yr.
help me think of the most impt TEN factors to do well. i will treat you:)
and yupp yang lao shi, i did study for my bsp lor, is just that i can;t portray my tots in chinese and it really hurts when you say u thought i didnt study luhh. your words penetrate into my heart man!u dunno how hard i mugged fer it, and just becus i didnt do well doesnt mean i didnt put in effort kaix.
i hope i get back the motivation i had in sec 2. to prove teachers wrong. i know i can. i simply need more motivation and self encouragement.
in anw, i left 5 days. havent pack finish, i dun even think i have enough clothes/ jacket to wear there, but i dun feel the excitement:/ k cheer up joycey maybe i would when the date draws nearer.
i want to use the airport phone:) and try to get the 44 mins back.
oops but i think the time is too early. is 545 am. kaix maybe 7 cus the flight leaves at 8am?
i just realised once i start, i couldnt stop. i started thinking lots of things, recalled many moments and woots i froze in smiles and giggles. one thing i think we should all learn is to always look on the bright side of life..
oh yesh ms sabrina, i rLY fail luhh... dunid to go and check mark sheet, and dun be surprised when you see my marks. i DID FAILED *hurrays*
kaix oh yesh how can i not say this... somehow i think the school sch should really giv us some of their trust. hahha i am really amused when teachers mark our scripts using highlighters to highlight in fear that we change our answer, i bet she bot lyk over 20 highlighters jus to mark a question. and i definitely trust all of us that we wuldnt do that. this is call mutual trust. the more you suspect, the more resentment and the school cohort starts to dislike it, the more pple wll do it. kaix maybe i m wrong, but i think it makes us feel lyk bad little brats.
okkay... i will be away fer six weeks. you peeps train hard kaix? dun be late for training.. sometime you may think is not ideal and suits your style and way, but we must learn to accept and adapt, train hard and get into nationals top 4... let's work together and propel forward.
okkay... i think this has reached a thousand word.
so i shall end here.
thou i have lots to say.
but it's all over
i resigned to fate
i need these results to wake me up for next year
i promise to do better
"i believe i can , therfore i become..."
and da korkor, mugg hard and pass kaix. jia you

torn

2005-10-16T01:26:00.000-07:00

kaix i will giv you a hug. i think i am sick.. to feeble and sickly to talk. i had slept a total of 23hrs 53mins. and yesh i din eat, din drink, din pee, din anytin. i seriously think i have a problem... bahhh, but the truth is when i sleep, i dun REALLy sleep. my mind begins to wander around and yar. thinking of tings that are really beyond my imagination..
anw guess wadd.. i m yawning now *yawns*
okok yesdae have that parents meeting sessios fer the china immersion, and i was totally amused by what my parents said about what another parent said during the session. HAHA!!! one parent, thou i really dunno whose is it. i was sleepng remeber? so i din go... the parent was lyk wad asking rubbish question luhh.. lyk wad will happen if her daughter died or sth lyk that. luckily i din go, else i will luff and irritates the whole lecture theatre. hahah
and what the what to bring list includes 4 masks and two rolls of toilets paper. someone pls telll me why? muahhaha two rolls of toilet papers sounds totally ridiculous to bring when you are gg fer a holiday aka immersion but nvrm thats farnie.
left EIGHT day.
and guess wad the flight i m taking on 25th of OCt is at 545am!!!!
and the paper writes there must go earlier by TWO hour which makes it 345am!!! muahah i suddenly feel so happy stayin at simei cus lyk the changi airport is a stone's throw away. can you imagine pple staying in yishun, boonlay there? happy and gd luck man! have a taste of how sitting mrt is fer me! is ONLY 20 sth stops lahh... you can rott or sth. ha OOPs i just realise theres another means of transport. CAR> oops. i was too carried away to sneer at other pple. anw mrt aint open at this hr. BLUHH shoot you luhh
BAHH i somehow really dun feel excited at all.. and somehow i feel lyk staying in spore. bahhhhhh...
someone pls make me high.
i think sleeping too much will results in these symptoms. everything feels so slow and idiotic and low to you.
RAHH

sentosa

2005-10-14T05:10:00.000-07:00

wheehoo todae went to sentosa:D soo happy... thou is oli 5 peeps... but i think things turn out really well and nice in small grps:) i lyk to be in small grps... you get involved and yepp you are into the activity and somehow you dun feel as stress as you were in a big grp. yup thats my personal feeling. thou 5 pple is lyk hmm one third of the team, but i will try harder and really hard. i hope it will turns out to be two thirds. then one whole. and yupp:) * put these aside*
but i was really happy.. these few days i have been feeling rather down... dunno why. but yep i m happy soul now. oh yeah 307 pple out there.. our class did really well fer maths. have 23 A1s out of 27 pple. so yeah *fireworks* that was one of the factor i was happy...and helen yeo says 307 is ranked top fer maths :) Bahhhh happy that our class did well.. but woots you see i came frm 208 and hmm sudden change. din really get used to it and well... somehow getting ranked top isnt a VERY good thing. kaix *smack myself dunno wad toking me*
yeah we played slap jack at sentosa. damn fun luhh!!! i offically announce that MAY IS THE DUMBEST followed by TAN TIFEN. then HOHO SELINE CHAN. ha.. me and evelyn is the most zai wan.. reaction fastest. hahah OOI let me lose also cannot. hiyahh *nose high up*
then later went splash splash in the waters... simply lyk the feeling in the waters. feel LIberated. feel relaxed. have nice lunch prepared by darling tifen and MY CHICKEN WINGS PLUS FISHCAKES and HOTDOGS. admit it! is delicious! ha! yeah and seline green tea. and evelyn ruffles. plus may lame's jokes make our lunch very fulfilling.
later went to plaza sing go watch movie. EVERYONE PLS GO AND WATCH SKELETON KEY!!! is super nice. have plot. harlo. this is lyk one of the few HORROR/ thriller movies that HAVE a plot rather than just scaring you w the sound effects and disgusting sights. this show rawks luhh.. thou i think butterfly effects still remains the top in my heart.
yeah... i think i m running out of time. is AFTER exam but i feel really busy. pls calm me dwn. i need some stablisers pills... in short i left TEN more days before i leave fer china. in this ten days i have to plan nytt camp (finished it) plus do this really IMPT personal stuff, plus this report i have to finish(and is half done), and i havent start packing, i havent start buying ANYTHING. i need time. time! TIME !. ROARS. i left TEN days to 25th of OCt before i m leaving fer SIX weeks. and in these ten days... minus off Thurs, Fri and MOn MAths Lessons. i left SEVEN DAYS. and seven days minus off one day for suzhouwenzhou talk... i left SIX days. minus off the rehersals dates. i left ZERO.
someone pls clam me dwn
i need to do lotsa things
plan camp.
do report
packing
frankly... i feel lyk having eoys again.. so i can just study study and study and make my brain cells clever.
bahhh but MON getting back results
all my brain cells will die of heart attack. wads that called? artherioscleriosis? aiyahh dunno how to spell.. call myself a bio student. so you c how the hell i can pass my bio w wad bird shit flying colours.
heyyy so tifen seline leyi bertie plus lx...
mus plan plan plan liao!!! i very worried
and so sorrie fer the rush. cus i really leaving in lyk ten days time:( and i noe you all have o levels chinese exams, *burp* gosh i m getting really gongg...
stressed.
save me

snapple

2005-10-13T05:25:00.000-07:00

HOHO i tell you arh xie huizhuang make ice blended super nice wan lor! *claps hand* tmr go sentosa of cus i make ice blended mar~!@ and slap may tan luhh... i go her house make ice blended mus be sooo nice that she says is sux luhh.. c, i tell you how jealousy leads to pple lyk may tan. HA! finally i m not THAT guilty le... played table tennis todae.. though is not intensive but i got go and play w those ah pei at tampines k. damn zai. HA! i not picking balls in china liao:)
---------------
todae went to health promotion board there fer checkup. woots i was erhem *coughs* shaldnt say-_-
---------------

HA I PASSED MY GUITAR EXAM!!!!
and BWHAHAH i received a phone call and i jus learned that i won the reader digest essay competition. boo not first luhh is the six months reader digest magazines plus dunno wadd vouchers and certificate.
some one pls LUFF@@@@@
HAHAHHAHA

and pls whack me. kaix i m so sry about that.. i will be more guai now.. i no pia kia kaix. *nods head*
HA! pls enlighten me!!! we are gg to have MATHS LESSONS on lyk wadd 20th 21st 24th Oct when we are leaving at 25th of OCT fer a DARN SIX WEEKS??!??@@??# oh well our school sure noes how to make us miss spore yeah. go and die pls... we suppose to be at home, giv our doggies our last huggs, say bye to our cosy beds or lyk hugg our computer fer the last time. and NOT having damn maths lessons. GOSH. ha! i better not complain. else i have demerit pt. Ha! i m so paranoid now.. PfftT kk, nanyang is a wonderful wonderful school. *coughs*
k luhh nice luh nice luhh and heyy hmmm whn i can meet you arh

reason to start over new

2005-10-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

ONE TWO THREE:" SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!#@$#&$^&#^$&^$&*#"
i feel so damn blardy liberated. watching tv with a mind and clear objective just to watch tv. watching movie today is seemingly an impossible thing to do, but tada i did it todae.. it had been months. HMPH but i rly dunno why i dun feel liberated and excited AT THAT MOMENT when kuo say :" pens down" frankly my whole heart, whole mind is aching. aching real hard. my physics is real real real no hope. hopeless. omg hahah tis very farnie n interesting short convo w sab...
*ms sabrina was giving out the exams paper for physics mcq and when she comes to my table *
me: oh no... i counted. i need to get full marks for the paper which is 120/120 to merely get a 76 for my overall.pathetic
sabrina: dun aim so high, aim for b3? *her face was full of hopeful and assuring smiles*
me: erm... yeah. i am aiming for C5 actually...
sab: *speechless*
but after i did the mcq with a total of 17 questions out of 40 "ticum-ing" i decided that my goal was to aim for C6.
so i was really damn desperate.
i mean really. oh man if you noe how shading an OAS feel like when half of it you are merely colouring it without thinking. you will get tat irony that knowledge is pure guessing and luck
yups i mus say. i never felt so pathetic b4. pple cry after the exam. or perhaps cry before the exam becus they were scared.
but i was worse
i cried DURING exam.
it was simply uncontrollable.
my mind was blank. i jolly well dun believe that i cant do it. first question dunno... *circle question* second question dunno* *circle question* followed by the third, the fourth and the fifth. i mus well jus stop right there, and dun giv a damn and simply walked off.
but i perserve in the sense that i give a whole holy shit of senseless answers. oh thank you very mucch. if lost was the word to describe whats happening. i never felt that lost. maybe i did emotionally but not in the circumstances of it during an exam
BUT SINCE IS OVER>
I DECLARE THAT I SHOULD NOT CRY OVER SPILT MILK.
thou i really put in a whole load of effort which an exam cant possibly weigh it all.
toodles. i shall play now.go shop for all my things needed fer gg to china. Heyy i bot my luggage bag liao. damn gigantic lAH
" playnow, cry later."
before i leave fer china i really wish to do sth.
and yu[[p if you noe what i m refering to.
------------------------------frm that day i see you----------------------
------------------------------i really cant wait to see you again. or perhaps the time jus freeze there-----------------------------
----------------------------reason to start over ---------------------------

yups

2005-10-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

i m sorry.. i wouldnt do that again. i promise.

2005-10-07T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hokkay!!! i broke my studyin rule yet again
but as usual rules are MEant for pple to break and yupps:D if there is no pple lyk me, then the whole internet will be suddenly lack of users and it wouldnt be useful anwmore... yepyep... todae went for coach regonition awards... wheex chenwei was wearing this stripy shirt.. hahah look super cute lor. and stoopid may tan yi xuan keep saboing me ! !! Bahh and i tell you arh! using hands to take sushi is perfectly ALRITE and very lucid to do that.! yep.. so may tan stop luffing! bahh... next mon physics. i dunno how to survive. my physics sia marks is terribly lao ya!!! i totally dun believe and i know deep dwn i really dun deserve such a mark. 59! and it carries 30 % of my exam. so anw pls tell me how i m a able to push it all up using my eoy to make it a b3 or sth... i bet eoy will jus make it worse. physics is really tough. i dunno y.. arhh i spent so much efforts doing my physics, my SIA, my work. preparing my tests my exams. till i gg bonkers. but the results are always the same. bahhh wei shen me???? i noe i shouldnt give up now. physics is my LAST PAPER> i m gg to end my eoys well... i hope. no matter how i fared. i wouldnt jus sit on the fence and do nothing... i will put in effort and prove to mdm toh i can do it. at least a b3 i promise. and pray and hope.
anw all the exams are -===============----- no comments... if there is a most careless person award i tinnk i will come FIRST. for maths 21 - 12 =7 and i got everything wrong
oooomgg!!!! and yupp after exam i have two more weeks before i go china... i mus go trng, then go china train. else come back my tt lao ya pok. kns. i hope the sch arranges fer us... and yu[pp to -eniles:- if you can c i m trying.. but you seems to be very attached to yr grp and i can feel that we no longer shares the bond. is it my fault?/? but when i heard you saying :" i suddenly feel scared" this sentence really trashed me upside dwn.
nvrm i simply have to work harder. but you are the companion cells too... i hope you give me the support. and make it well
thx

bdae

2005-09-20T06:08:00.000-07:00

kaix my blog is dead i mean everyone blog is dead. dead dead dead guess y... the school tortures us by having exams lyk pfft 1 more week.. and can anynoe pls tell me how i m to PASS my bsp(s) paper???? i sure die die!!! i dunno a SINGLE thing on wadd TAIWAN AND CHINA... and wad has their business gotta do w me? Blahhh... and i gotta at least get an A or B else there goes everyting. no more scholarship and zheng lao shi say needs to PAY THE MONEY BACK TO THEMthis is the check list of subjects:
1)BIO= havent MEMORISE A SINGLE THING
2) Chem= i dunno how to even construct eqn, and how do you expect me to noe how to prepare the damn salt and wadeva. text bk so thick can kill me lehh
3) physics= yupps mdm toh say is GG to be diff.. so lets all die tgh
4) both languages = my only hope
5) social studies= i think this req common sense. but the fact that i dun really have some freak me out
6) BSP (s) paper= i grew dark eye rings becus of this! i totally think i m screwed.

kaix anw... the main purpose i came to blog todae... anw my time table was lyk " STRICTLY NO MSN, NO INTERNET, NO BLOGGING"
but rules are meant for people to break
so tada i m here.
and my main purpose is not to brood over how my studies are gg on
but to wish two happy souls on earth HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
on 20th and 21st:D muacks and *blows the cakes candles*
*give you a kiss* *huggs* and yupps:) hahahah you are 29. spent your last 2 digit meaningfully:D lao le:P
happy Bdae J------I-------E-----

Guitar Exam

2005-09-04T07:15:00.000-07:00

okkay my guitar exam totally SCREWED>
let me do the elaboration:
*practice in rm 14... waiting for my turn to be next*
suddenly:" HUIZHUANG! Pls wait outside the room until the examiner calls you in.
so i waited and waited. and my hearts goes LUB DUB LUB DUB every moment. my ventricles and valves were beating as if they were at wrestling. I felt my whole heart in my mouth. and obviously the tendors aint working hard enough to prevent backflow of blood.
THE DOOR WHOOSH FLINGED OPENED:" XIE HUIZHUANG?"
" erm yepp:)"
so i sat down and there was TWO examiners and a ISOLATED chair in the middle. i was all alone i realised. they started saying:" okkay play romance de amor" THAT WAS MY FAV SONG. i tot i was gna pass w an A but BUMP! i started to fumble and i miss LOTS of notes. I told myself to slow down BUT i simply went faster. it suppose to be a ROMANTIC song. I played it lyk a bullet train preparing for world war 2. and yupps!@!@#@$$# i kinda sobbed and sniggle at myself. oh man! ------------------ *that was the FIRST SECTION of my test*
next on was a free choice. they wanted me to play Pansado.~!!@#!#@ jia li lurves this song alot. and me too... i can almost play with my eyes CLOSE> and i SCREWED IT ALL UP AGAIN.
it went SOOOOOO smootly until the last part. GOD y mus this happen! !@@! My finger GOT STUCK IN THE STRINGS and i forgot wads was the next notes. oh gooooshhhhh i feel lyk digging a hole on the spot and crawl out of the room. it felt so lyk a prison. ! ARGH
next was SIGHT READING.
i lyk reading but not SIGHT READING.
i noe my notes damn well... but i cant STOP at the right time. i played lyk a clown playing balls. oh man and they LUFFED AT ME>
but sight reading aint as bad as i tot.
kk this come the farniest paart!
the examiner suppose to play this song. and i accompany him with chords. so he started giving me the cue. i followed on telling myself to slow dwn at least. so i DID> I SLOWED DOWN SO SLOWLY that he said:" this isnt for old folks to listen" k i realise i m damn blardy slow, so i went a little faster. so play play play... until the middle part. i FORGOT HOW TO STRUM! so he stopped and said:" do you noe you are playing like a goose?" i went hurhur sorry sorry... we carried on... we played PAINFULLY and i guessed he probably think i m the worst partner ever to accompany a song w him. oh well.. he added:" the song was beautifully played by me but you...er add more LIFE TO IT" that was suppose to be SARCASTIC!
and if anyone figure out how playing fast associate w playing lyk a goose. pls tell me i wna reflect
because they simply freaked me out. till i think i pee everywhere man! the call me to play G major scale
and GUESS WAD
I PLAYED C MAJOR!
THATS THE END>
I SCREWED IT ALL UUp!
arghh I hate myself
i hate goose.

2005-08-29T08:39:00.000-07:00

BAHHH EVERYONE IS DAOING ME... ARGHH

wheehoo

2005-08-18T10:37:00.000-07:00

i never felt so happy before. tmr x country, and i wanted to actually pack my bag for lessons till 12pm. and guess was i saw on my time table!>!>@!>#>@#$>@ WE ARE SKIPPING A BLARDY HELLL ONE AND A HALF HR OF MATHS LESSON!!!! oh man * fire works* hahahahah wheehooo.. some one pls applaud loudly. Bahhh seriously, i think maths lesson is a COMPLETE TORTURE> *everyone nods head* oh man ... can you imagine the sight when i have to open my eyes and act interested and bluhh trying to absorb and stuff everything in my mind when my holy mind is lyk miles away. and the lecture theatre aircon plus yeo's weirdo hypotising. -_-"' wheex. talk about her again. i think is either i stupid or pple too clever. she said the quiz WAS EASY. i fckingg hell dunno wth is toking about. *take pity on myself*
and maths test. Bahh shall not tok about it. bahh actually i think she is quite sad and pitiful the whole sch kinda blames and hate her now. hahah jus fer setting a paper where a professional trained one would consider a little too tough in the sense of not the difficulty of the paper but rather the time period and duration.maybe the tcher have tried out themselves but considering that they are teachers and ARE SUSPOSE to get related and connected to those questions thus they can obviously do faster. Bahh so they should have made it longer or sth. but nvrm. i m jus so happy that there is no maths period tmr. that i m on cloud nine now. some pls cheer:D
and yepyep zen:) missie ya too.. hope you are getting really fine. hmm so how are you getting on now> not teaching khs alrdy rite i heard. do ya noe the cd you burn fer me.? with all the SuN yan zi songs... i hear and hear and hear over and over again until it spoils... and i was soooo upset and i didnt throw away... hahah but can still hear but will have jerks and stops everynow and then. woots... the disc is let me think----- 4yrs 8 months old. yupyup... heyy update me how you getting on kaix:P wheex... take care and OH YAR! WAds your babe gurl name? wheehoo... *excited* tata

crushed

2005-08-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

someone pls cheer me up. i feel like crying luhh... feeling really desperate. let me tell you my setbacks of the week. oops i jus realised is the START of the week .. how can i have setback of the week when i have only one day. this shows how bad my day was. it felt lyk i had been thru one whole week.
my physics test rly disappointed me. really. i mean really. i thought i fared pretty well luhh.. having prepared a test for more than 2 weeks is really not an easy task to do and it requires determination. jus when i felt so proud in my sense of urgency to gett ready fer a test. it fell lyk a bang to me. givin me a damn 24/40. oh well thanks. thanks so much. not that i m whining for my grades. i hate doing that. but is the irony that hard work seldom pays. who is the wise man who said that? i fell really bad when i consoled myself that :" it's okay if you tried your best" but have you ever realised. if this statment is true. you are REALLY DOOM. that means that. you tried your very best and the very best score and mark you can get is that. oh man. that really showed the real capability one had. woots. i refused to believe that. thats y i announced that this statment is officially not ture. it should be modified to:" it's okay if you tried your best. that's only for the healing of your conscience and not for your mind, brain or ego. absolutely not.
is the dysfunctional society when she dont appreciate hardwork, determination and sincerity. that's no such things but what the society really wants and crave for is the product. the results and the achievement. woots how saddening.
2) i want to read my story book in a peaceful mind state. but tmr Maths test is bugging me. go and die luhh SHOOo
3) and i want so much to do things i want. but but... okkay no more wallowing in self pity, huizhuang. get over it
4) studying too much spoils your brain
5) but hiyahh spoiling your brain is the way to gd progress report and report book
6) how ironic-_-

i want to know how you feeling inside.
i feel like a clown trying to figure out everything.
this is the feeling i just cant fight.
i surrender my soul.
my heart<3
to make sweet love.

qoho

2005-08-13T02:19:00.000-07:00

bahhh tonite gg to city hall there watch hhk qin nian tuan yan chu.. wheex so long nvrm c hhk pple liao... burp burp:) bahh next tues have maths test oh man-_- just hope i m at the right mode at that moment. pfft else i sure die. need that marks DESPERATELY... woots i repeat desperately to pull my sawks up to my head else i can go die liao. bahhh my chem test is absolutely wheehooo dead. thou i passed, it was lyk such a shaky wan 23/36... haha but yeo hwee leng lurve me man. i lurve her too .. so sad that she is gg liao... gg dunno where USA arh with her son. bahh thou i hated her . i mean really hated her las time. she gave me demerit point luhhh -_-"' not 2 nor 6 is a blardy hell 8 demerit point and i was gna be expelled/ suspended. hahah but that was last time.now i m frigging guai in this almost flawless class 307. wheehoo so guai beyond imagination. seating upright to listen to what the teacher has to say. and pretending to be very intereted in their lesson but wheehoo i m sleeping w my eyes wipe open. Bwhahah.... but anw... i have a wonderful conversation w yeo hwee leng in the lift after helping her to move her stuff to her car.
yeo:" wa so busy , luckily got you to help me"
me :" hurhur hokkay"
then we walked into the staff rm w Mr Yam saying:" haha this student arh... *tsk *tsk"
yeo:" yeah i noe her fer 3 years" and what she means was 3 year of counselling me
me:" hurhur ... this year then you teach me wadd"
yeo:" yar i m amazed that you are so hardworking and your grades are good. hiyahh why so foolish lus time? so much troubles for me"
me:" hurhur now it was now then you noe i m good?" BOOo
yeo:" i dont normally rmb people name. but i always remembered yours.
and with that i kinda felt touched. and she gave me mini hugg or was it a touch... and i took my bag and bid gdbye to her.
wheehooo. for once i think she is angelic and thats when she is gg off.
shi qu le cai hui zhen xi
this is extremely true..
wheehooo zen! your gal means=??? hokkay anw rly looking forward:) and it will surely come true... kaizkiaz. anw... cintia coming back on 20 th i think to spore... and she invited her fwens to her house (not the condo wan) the new house. yepyep can you make it. but i dunno whens the date thou. yeppie... take care and cya' the day will come.
it has been 2.5 years

moi bdae

2005-08-09T02:13:00.000-07:00

kk... 15 years on earth... whees hooo
yesdae went to watch charlie and the choco factory w gibson, may, lixuan, sijun, ryu, jue cun plus plus plus some of the maritst peeps... woots the movie is sooo sweet luhh go watch:D and i m in lurve w Mr Wonka nw.. wheex and Mr Wonka's workers are simply cute! handsome man!hahah then later idiot may went to meet her papa mama fer dinner... bahh but for the fact that she baked me cookies with eve, she is still angelic:D yuppis
i shall thank the people who gave me prexxie...
korkor- thanks for that froggie
benedict- thanks for the balloon
jasmin- dog plus lurve letter
may eve- cookies plus ****ing frogs cd edition
Thanks Xinwei, Junyi, juecun, Zhenghan, Fungshing, Charmaine, huiping,eelong,yi hong, si huan, yong lin, huitian , Seline, Bao Na, Grace, Tze Hui, Shi Shuang, Kevin, nigel, weibin, jasmon, desmond, weijie, vincent, wen rui, jennifer, joanne, nic, yunning, jenny, christofer, lily, li hui, chen yun, tifen ... plus zen:) and gibson:)
* oops if i didnt mention ya name.. but thanks peeps:D fer the greetings and prezzie:P
Bwhahah and yeppp zen... looking forward to see fireworks w ya.. that would really be a dream come true. and yepeyeps once again, thanks for the greeting. it rly means alot to me. haha
happy national day people!!!!!
go buy 4D number...
4015
40 years old singapore plus 15 years old huizhuang makes 4015 a sure hit number.
hahah
win alrdy rmb to give me 20 % of the prize horr~~~
plus commision to jasmin. oh yay thanks her for making my face really splendid:D
MuaCks Everybody:P

bade wish

2005-08-06T04:07:00.000-07:00

oh gurl i m 14 turning 15 very soon i would be a young adult transforming into an adult. gosh sooo old and rapid can.. B ahhh bow to mature huizhuang.
burp dunno why this year bdae lyk not excited a single bit. totally numbed and moodless...
grrrr, i wna be saturated in my way of celebration which prob no one would know.. this year my mum cant celebrate w me... booo so sad:( hiyahh.. then mon go to sch for was nanyang national day celebration .. oops issit suspose to be called the :" SOLEMN OBSERVATION SESSIOn?" i have half a mind to pon it luhh seriously wasting time... how fun and interesting a national day celebration can be? is always the same old cliche manner... a live band will play song then everyon will start forming into grp and wriggle ard. there would be so many kind of pple... the damn craze enthu pple... the bo bian mus be enthu pple... the act enthu pple... haha the bocham pple.. the heck care pple.. the totally dunno wads gg on pple.. and i m btw the act enthu and bocham pple... and oh gracious.. i kena sabo by my lamer fwen jasmin and co. to be the person being drawn on w red an white on national day celebration. how wonderful.. is moi bdae on national day lehh... then i will grow many pimples... boo 15 pimples to symbolise 15 years old.
kaiz i m toking rot
i want to see fire works'
i want mummy
kaiz my wish list item
resolution:
to build up stamina and substain to the end of the year
Hopes:
be on cloud nine everyday
Wish list:
nike shirt:)
Adidas/ nike jacket :):):)
sports bra ( lacking of that man)
surfer shorts
baggs
sneakers
roxy pullover
tHAT pencil box ( bahh but i dun wan copy shishuang:(
aiyahh too lazy to think
no soft toys!!!@#@$4
haha kaiz... yicheng i so guai listen to you. . put up my wish list for you. bahh
a nixe and sincere card
that would certainly make my day

slacker

2005-08-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

oh no. i m slacking
tmr have chem test
fri have physics test
and i m here slacking
boo
but i cant study luh

woots

2005-07-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

woots.. todae was lyk the first cycling really mini " expedition" (br) woots. i was really bored to death luh... turning around and learn how to brake. not that it is aint challenging but yupp i have this feeling that all along i have been cycling on my own.. poor thingy. cus 307 ol have 4 pple signed up then rachel din cum, then left me and shishuang.. while 306 have lyk a damn big bunch of pple.. hhah they were fun peeps:) keep singing songs and yupps can see they definitely put in sooo much more effort than 307 for teachers day. our class is really erm nothing to say. dun even bother to noe what are we doing. haha think this type of thing, we surely need a capable organiser and yupps with the right and positive mindset. well, we obviously dun have. so nvrm. hmph... yepp carry on. we cycled and reached the bedok jetty.
BeDoK JeTtY thats was really a wonderful memory recap fer me. i visualised lotsa things. the whole jetty has changed. everything has changed. changed.. that may be one of the metophoric devices to mark the separation of -us- yupps i saw pple catching fish and i instantly rmb wad you say to me. kaix nvrm... is still as beautiful as before. never changed beneath it.

what

2005-07-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

firstly, pple voice out things becos they can express themselves well.. but sometime is simply not. is a fake expression with numerous layers of masks..
go away... pls respect me.
we are working as a grp not an individual.
and if you think jus becos i m "higher" than you and you jus think is aint of any of your job.
then great you are absolutely a selfish freak..
not once or twice that you said that to me. but lyk many many times. that sometime i get irritated and not share anything. cus everytime i m suspose to tell you sth. the first thingy you would say is " i tot is oli fer you. is your job wad"/we need to do meh.
that is so you.
and i m so me by saying nvrm.
cus i accept selfish pple in my world
cus they exist and you are one of those.
and respect is a mutual relationship.
so pls do so.
b4 i lose mine to you.
we are no longer as close as b4... cus you chose to be superior over skills
over friendships
and over the many things you thought would be over.
well maybe it;s really over.

2005-07-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

i miss ruby duoduo.. someone pls bring ruby back... oh man kk i let you bite my shoebag, bite anything you want.. but pls come back... goldie and joycey miss you alot... come, i give you a hug.

ok

2005-07-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

yeah smtime i really wondered y i slogged so hard and phew theres always no results shown. i know is kinda idiotic and angsty saying this.. but yupps i hate school.
is not that i cant take the stress or anything, but i simply find it meaningless to go to school cus i dont know whats the real objective of it. issit to be a mugger? and yupp all we have done is to mugg mugg mugg... so what is you damn have many flickless certificates> be a high post employee and wheex wait fer your bonus and stuff? rite perhaps is really rite. and the society has condemned a person ability with the dead and liveless piece of paper, and not judging what the person really have is his roots and talents.. oh man... -_-
so yepp...
anw, i think is really really difficult if you jus want me to change into a different environment. life is not about studying, and seating w W Y is really very stressful for me.and i kow myself, i dont work well in a stressful environment, i would jus get more nervous, moer panicky and in the end jus walk off lyk a loser when everyone around me is a winner and snores aways. ok what can i do? jus suck my thumb and continue life.
and wadd i late fer sch THREE time le. and the damn irritating rule say that the fourth time would have wadd 2 demerit pt plus 2 community service. omg! you know wadd not only i hate sch life but i m having such a bigg "threat and burden" everyday. FEARIng to go to sch cus if i m late another time i am dead. so everytime i m about to be late. i will jus tell my dad i wouldnt want to go to sch.. fetch me home please. i think i aint that innocent sweet little zhuang last time, when i yearns to go to school and would jus probably sobs away during pri sch if i dun attend sch. and rite now, it a torture to even wake up from my bed to see the sunrise and awaits a new day. So ironic. not as if i wanted to be late rite... but pfft is partially my fault but sth wrong w these days expressway.. so many cars which are equivalent to the strands of hair we have.
and oh yepp.. i ran so fast that day that i fell right on my hipbone in the middle of the back quadrangle. oh well.. thats So embarassing, but as least i showed my S.O.U (sense of urgency) eh. pfft.... heyy anw zen... you not in khs alrdy arh? i guess so.

2005-07-06T08:05:00.000-07:00

BahhH when can i see you again?

2005-06-27T03:01:00.000-07:00

oh well wadd a wonderful day to start sch. first i was ALMOST LATE fer sch. i was one sec earlier. and yepp i banged into a lot of tchers while trying to run on my toes to my class line. Phew but luckily i wasnt late. and yu[ps followed on by chem lab. then MATHS wadd a dramatic session. my fone rang in the middle of the class and broke everyone's sweet dreams.. it was a msg... and yupp Ms Yeo:" huse was that?" i replied MINE! and yupp my msg tone. so she called me to take my fone down to her. so we carried on our lessons. and yupp at the end of the lessons, she called litian aand meijie to tell me to see her after school, but they ferget to tell me.. but i took my own initiative to look fer her but wth she wasnt there. i went to look fer her the second time after maths graphical caculator lesson. oh yarh mrs ho was there too.. haha and she said the msg was frm her. okaix but yupps i t was my very own fault that i din off it or at least hav the rite mind to sswitch it to silent mode. but wth i put it on ALARM MODE. oh thankie joycey must be crazzy.. yupps anw i went to the maths dept to look fer her once again. she wasnt there.. so i was lykl asking ng sooling:" is ms yeo there?" ng sooling:" narh she went home" " WADDD?!@?!? She WENT HOME??omg lyk wtf!@ she went home!!!" then i was lyk really desperate so i was lyk asking her to help me search fer my hp on the table. then she said cannot luhh.. i begged her again and again.. and finally she went to her table :" oops i dun think is there" so yupps i begged her to help me msg her to tell her i need my fone back and she said okkay.. so MS HELEN YEO replied saying that wadd i need to write her a statment of commitment of sth>?? yar lyk HUR!!@@ i wrote that so many times last year luhh and it was always rejected by tchers.. and ended up they will force you to write what THEY WANT YOU to write. lyk aint that they writing to themselves? BOO.. so yupps i was really madd cus she brought it back home,though i noe it was really my fault and i m willing to take up any punishment, but heyy she really shouldnt have brought it home or sth... bahh... now all my contacts are GONE. and yupp i m unaccessible.. phew luckily i sent mass t.t msg to everyone that wwe are meeting tmr. wa she totally makes my day UPSIDE DWN.
pfft but once again i apologise that it was indeed sstupid of me to put my fone in alarm mode. and yupp but you seriously make my day upside dwn and really thanks to you man... not that i want to mention but the times i help you mass sms and to the extent of CALLING EACH AND EVERYONE UP to ask them hu is gg fer the graphical cal thingy.. harlo i repeat i called every single wan up. when it is evidently NOT my JOB. and come to think of it~ not that i m not helpful or sth but put it in a sensible mode that leekoon aint happy at all, and she misunderstands. and you come telling me that the only reason you msg me was because i was the only contact ya have in 307. lyk harlo if you really have the sensible mind as a teacher or at least an adult, you wud easily get it frm the class contact list. oh well guess you wouldnt bother to go check it out at all and yupps thankis fer all that. that time when i called everyone up, you din even say a single thanks. oh man. not that i mind but it was really lyk a bang to me, harlo:??! you treat me as a messenger or sth>? kaiz, now that i gave ya leekoon number... i hope the rainbow will soon shine. and yupps.
i lurve ng sooling she said:" didnt you see the uk report? teenager are obessed w hp/ so if you survived tmr, i will give you chocolates."
HAHAH
omg she makes my day.
unlike ya.
makes my day dwn
but she makes it up...
go away!
give me back my fone

bsp camp

2005-06-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

i m finally back:D kaix bow to me, i m the gai bang sect aka beggar sect, which offically achieves and outbeat other sect and walked out of this world of sects with truimph. *applause* yupps, but somehow i dont really enjoy the camp, apart from the talks that can make you meet your stinky socks in your dreams. and yupp, i think i slept and snored for almost all the sessions, or either that i was happily engrossed in my book, harlo>? book and laoarhpei that tries to talk to themselves.. which wan woould choose? i rather spend my time brushing my teeth and gets ready to sleep:) pfft, the camp was rather-_- but in a way successful in terms of comfort zone. and yupp water bomb was greatt, though i was injuried by jl elephant slap. and hmph our grp performance was kinda goooddd but hmph i was enriched w guys hu can dance to the xtreme which smhow makes me wooooooots"' erhem yeah have goosebumps. and yupps HCI pple lyk to SINGS. hmm and i aint singing type. so yupps.. hahaburrpp i wanto go slp

to you

2005-06-16T05:42:00.000-07:00

Holding on (may)

The road of love,
Freight with jealousy
Insecurity adding to its dangers
Inferiority
Piling layer upon layer
Building up the tension

Loving him seems too hard,
And she’s getting tired.
Overwhelmed with fatigue
She let go

Remembering the day
Her hands found way into his,

As they stared this cruel world into the face.
They took to the challenge.
To never let go,
No matter how love made a fool
Out of both of them

“Love me tender,
Love me sweet.”

“Hold on,
And never let me out of sight”

Yet now,
They both have failed their quest,
And letting go seems
The easiest way out.

As he felt her hand
Slowly slipping away in the end,
He knew he had lost it somehow.
He realized he was holding on
Only for one reason,
That he had fallen in love-
With love itself.

He can only find solace
As he reminiscence
The times they spent,
Hand in hand,
Looking over the world so cruel,
Looking over the world so real.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
So long as eternity permits

Be with me
So long as eternity permits.

Don’t let me fall
Fall out of my cudle
I felt my heart being ripped apart.
Once was all it took
To leave me all alone in the cold

Bruised and battered,
My heart slowly hardened
As the night died away

Caged, locked,
Imprisoned for life.
Alone I sat,
In my heart so torn apart.

You came without a warning,
You came without a word.
Yet you came to me
As a bubble of happiness
One so pure,
Never to be tainted.

You filled me with envy,
You filled me with butterflies.
You filled me with hesitation too.

Yet I’m taking the chance
My heart’s on probation

‘Handle with care’
Sprawled over me

I don’t want this bubble to burst
So take my hand,
So we don’t get separated.
But yet our walls so high
Tried climbing mingling on the bark

But did you hold on just like I did
I reckon one day when the rainbow being embraced
your clouds will fade away

And hold on,
So long as eternity permits.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

my will wouldnt let me let go, or should i say it is my heart who orders me to do so

hey

2005-06-12T02:02:00.001-07:00

bwahh yeah i shall not feel lousy again:) kk, went splash splash todae. swam 25laps non stops kaiz. yeah burnt at least 1000 calories! hahah yupps i wna suddenly have this desire to go sit see-saw with ya pushing me high up to the sky. boo wad toking me *bongg*
dunno y lyk so fast 2 weeks le. die liao. means 2 weeks later sch reopen gna be so screwed and on my toes again till it have blister. hmph. dun lyk go sch, esp when sooo many pple ard me are lyk soo -_-"' totally stressed me out luhh.and yupps so many more SIAs lyk we are gg to be so dead. and Bwahh lyk hu i m gg to sit w man when sch reopens... think if sab gna choose fer us, i m gg to be isloated again, next to the dustbin. thats how all pe tchers think. just lyk loo.Bwhahah and yepp man i rather spend my time in the toilet than go to sch and be a nerd. hmph. bwahhh narh narh.. i m so happy todae... wheepidoo.

hey

2005-06-12T02:02:00.000-07:00

2005-06-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

i want to fly away. with my flying shoes. wheex fly to the timegate and change everything.

ping pong xhat

2005-06-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

mixed emotions.really mixed emotions... dunno whether to be happy, proud of myself, sad, idiotic, wasted or whatever.. arghh gosh luhh i dun even noe how to express myself sad luhh.
anw, i really want to say sorry to janice, yepp lost to her 2-3 and yupp i really really very pin and aint very fuqi at first so yupp i was swearing and arghh dawolling in self pity. yepps and i was really very insensible luhh so , yeap man sorry janice.
kaiz anw, i really do wanto achieve sth
i will i shall
try again
and again
till i really do achieve it
and show it to ***************************
yeah anw, i lurve ya<3
i lurve my shoes
i lurve zhuang

screwed i have a blardy screwed life

2005-06-06T05:24:00.000-07:00

i have a blardy screwed life./. yeah i hate myself! = oh pls pls sTop it! I hate you! Go away!!!!!! nobody understands me luhh!!! like pls go and reflect on yourself yeah i m a childish child yeah and i hate myself. golden mouth. thats it. nobodys cares... i m jus so lonely. lonely lonely:o how i wish i weent to another world full of happinesss... my story my life and my side of me. i hate being locked up in a wooden gallow... i cant even pass my side of life, i cant even face up to myself own ego, i simply cant. sometime i begin to ponder that do i belong to you. am i suspose to be here. am i ?? was it a wrong choice ever to be a someone who cant be herself. and yupps its me! i have been wearing the mask, the mask everybody would have. i simply cant take it off my face, my heart, my life and yupps i cant bring out myself. so thats me. thats me nothing but a person who is in doubt but put it convincing. arghh i wish i have someone to share things with me. to listen to me to support me and yepp to lend me hershoulder when i am pouring. i want my rainbow. and i had one but it diminished. vanish.

yarh

2005-05-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

happy bdae mummy:) woots~! gosh gosh i ate so much luh in the restaurant-_-"' and yupps woots i think rly did put on weight and grown horizontally. yeah man *winks* i shall go exercise:D haha and yeah no more snacks man!! kk, i shall slim dwn:) and haha but bahhh my face and cheeks jus simply stays the same Luhh-_-"' so chub and round o_O kaix nvrm... haha and yeah Zen~!~ rmb you said i will wear specs lyk six months after that day? haha until now i havent wear specs yet lehh:) * cheers* and yupps but hehe i think i gna wear soon man! everyday pokes my nose in a book and read those ant-like words-_-"' yeah eyesight sure deprove de... muahah...
>>anw, wongie called my parent yesdae cus din go collect report day that time. haha and guess wad i really dun understand luhh wangjiali hav EXcellant in conduct and harlo.. * push up specs* haha i have very good fer conduct-_-" Bwahah nvrm at least better than my sec 2s conduct was FAiR~!@# so yupps i m thankful le. hehe and sab's remarks was totally INSPIRING-_-"' i was thinking if she was lacking of vocabulary to put comments in my report book :" huizhuang is a playful gurl but is serious in her studies. and blahhhx those very common used sentences after this.." oh well thankew VERY MUCH... hehe PlayFul???!?!? harlo cant you use "Active" instead of playful? and arghh.. my L1R5 can just lead me to jc lyk jjc, cjc or pjc. and in order to be kept in intergrated programme to HCI, i gotta pull up my sawks till i wear a sawkings till my head. GRrr but nvrm at least the conversation btw wongie and my mum wasnt as bad... they were chatting HAPPILY. yupps thanks goddd. kk i promise, and yupps everyone pls witness this solemn promise of zhuang's:
I am so gna be a good gurl *pats head* and yupps gna pull my sawks ltyk wongie said and hmm i mus win in t.t dun lyk the feeling of keep losing lor-_-"'
kk beta list them out:
1)be good gurl
2)wear high~ sawks *pull up sawks*
3)win tt in csc
4) hope our table tennis cip go perfectly well...
5) be on a diet
6) SIAs and hmwk to be all smiling at me in my bag and not bugging me
7) maintain not to wear specs :)
8) promise what i have promised:D
come on gimme your support by saying :" hip hip Horray !" NOW hahah
woots you did that?
Thanks *smiles*

woots i m sick

2005-05-25T05:51:00.000-07:00

this is wad exactly happen todae:
1) i was running late fer sch oh thanks god, it RAINED. so yepp not counted. woots.
2) Pe - have PE TEST. which i think it is totally CRAPPy, i having tummy ache then need to go toilet urgently.. so guess wad i did? all the questions i put the ans offensive and yupp multiple choice i put all "B" yeah chang tsai mus be thinknig how inattentive i m in her class.. and yup i told her that i cant run todae, and haha yepeili think i m slacking. hmph but yupps i AM
3) i started sneezing> AH CHOOOO!
4) i counted.. i used 39 pieces of tissue paper.
and yupps i wasnt feeling good. bleaghs gosh i go watch show liao

ok

2005-05-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

yeah oh pls let me win this sat:D Yepp i can do it and jia you everyone:D and haha gib:) you can do it de larhh:D jia you!
Boo... wheex, rushed all the way from my house SIMEI to my brother's hostel BOON LAY , i repeat ALL THE WAY to get a digicam fer tmr phototaking. Bwahahh quite farnie then phew~ luckily and hmph jia li refuses to be my photographer. pfft go away luhh, and yups i have my digicam all ready le, so happy. tot of borrowing frm huiling but lyk so bothering her. yeps, reached hme at 1045pm lolx.
and yupp sabbaticals was very enriching. huozhe was so nice can:D and yupps shanru-khan is mine lor('',) haha
how i wish everyday we can jus go and watch movie and have a "hu can tahan longest movie exam" wow then i surely top de. and yupps toking bout exams ohman! sm1 pls kill me-_- i broke so many records this terms luhh-_- and yupps my boat is sinking and hurhur i gotta wear stocking:D *pull up my sawks till i wear a stocking* Bqwhahah hokkay i wanna Zzzz le.. nitex and yeppi! go slp luhh

yupps

2005-05-18T08:15:00.000-07:00

haha since everyone is toking bout shan rukh khan, i shaldnt tok bout it. bleahgx hhurhur... and haha jus visited class blogg, it was kinda farnie all the blogg is lyk associated w him luhh think our whole sch gg crazee w a single Indian guy hu is married, oh man shatters heart. haha how a movie ccan change so much really amazed man...
anw, bleaghx, dunno wadd to say but i feel damn helpless smtime luhh, lyk gotta appear strong at times jus to sastify the title and appearance to others, really pretty diff smtime, and yeahh i simply dun understand the fact that we suspose to work togetda but yupp she assume i suspose to take everything in my hand and i was really pretty shock you bet when she replied me why cant i do it myself in my abilities? bleaghx. i wish i could but lets c about the division of it. i would not expect everyone to appreciate what i did but yupps at least dun hurt my feelings but saying i suck at that and pin point features when ya yrself didnt put and drip any single trinkle drop of oil in the lamp to keep it burning. oh well thanks so much if you could jus say a soft and sincere "well done" but you didnt and yepps-_-
and yet another wan, trying so hard to make sme noise, but only empty vessel do that and yupp you are absolutely one. trying all the way to be lyk one that barks and want a piece of fat slice meat but in the end you would just end up being detest. i wouldnt know your intentions, i believe your passion in it, but come to think of it, aint you ALWAYS try to be a bigg boss and show your nose in the air and well get biten off my a big house fly. oh how nice. stop it pple. i have had enough! boo

flag day

2005-05-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

all rite todae is flag day... hmm the whole experience is lyk totally enriching and amusing luhh... suspose to reach specialist center at 12pm, but i reached at 1pm, damn late, so sorrie jiali:) haha and yupps so everyone went w their group liaox left me alone to collect my flagday items to ask fer donations. so i went AlONE luhh, so freakyx haha dunno where to go at first but in the end decided to go to the Cine traffic there... lotsa pple mar, and cus the flag day uncle is lyk telling me how to ask pple fer donations, mus smile and say thank you. so yepp i went smiling all day long (aint diff fer me) oh here come the exciting part.
well, the human traffic and crowd there was very good, so many pple came to donate. haha mus be mesmerised by my smile. just jokin luhh.. and yeah i keep asking the same ques :" excuse me:) would you like to donate?" AND GUESS WAD?! here comes a BIG GROUP OF GUYS. look damn intidimating luhh.. then one of them went forward to me
ME:" excuse me, would you like to donate?"
HE:" I WANT YOUR NUMBER!"
ME:" *turns away* oops sorrie, er dunnid to donate liaoz. thank you thank you..."
HE:" *he puts a 5 dollar note inside and ask with more gentle tone this time* MAY i have your number?"
ME:" thank you fer your donation.. have a nice day! *smiles in terrified mode*
HE :" May I have your no.?"
his friends:" aiyahh... later your gf come find you... go lar"
----------------------------------(end of case no.1 )-------------------------------------------
Phew~~!@## can you imagine... i bet they were sorta bengs, and i was lyk so afraid i will get hoot luhh~!@#

Case No.2
yeah this time, i met a really scary guy.. he is very good looking but will grow up to be a wanted pervet. yepps, good looks but freakx personality. omg!
Me:" Excuse me, would you like to donate?"
HE:" SURE!"
and he gave me 10 BUcks! very generous...
Me :" thank you! have a nice day:D"
He:" * he puts in ANOTHER 10 DOLLAR NOTE!* and then he wanted to STROKE MY FACE!! OMG! I WAS LYK SWAYING MY WHOLE BODY TO AVOID HIS HAND... PHEW how on earth would a person be lyk that???? Omg i was lyk blardy piss and i said:" EXCUSE ME!!!" ARGhhh
HE:" SORRie but you look really beautiful and cute, wanna be my stead"
ME:FAINTED
*walk away in a VERY FRANTIC MODE*
-----------------------------------end of case no.2--------------------------------------------
and well.. there are lotsa nice pple too... there is this man who gave me his WHOLE pocket of COINS!!! Woots:) wow i bet there were at least 10 dollars worth of coins... how nice~ and yupps one very weird woman went to me and treated me as a NY representative or some kinda admin pple... she was lyk keep asking me how Nanyang prepare fer o levels. and wadd NY have Intergrated Programme rite? have 3 principals? omg.. i was lyk answering her questions as if her daugther was there fer a orientation! haha luffs my head off and she keeps insists that i m not a sinaporean cus she says my chinese sounds farnie. i told her so many time that I AM A SINGAPOREAN and A CHINESE. she keeps saying that I M NOT A SINGAPOREN, and she thinks i m a korean or japanese. i said NO to her SO damn many blardy times. then she says may be i come frm CHINA. arghh... I M A SINGAPOREAN:" oh yay thankyou:)

hmm to round up, i m very proud of myself luhh.. collected alot of $ you know... the bag was very very very full and i oli left 2 pieces of stickers. woots. yeah it was an enriching experience aint it? Bwhahah

2005-05-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

Booo.. pls slaughter shirley.t and yepp... go look at yrself in the mirror b4 toking to me. Burpp and yupps :D

Bwhah

2005-04-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

dun luff pls dun luff * controls luffters* *BWHAHAHAHAH * erm sorry i couldnt help it-_- burrrp
todae hav trng w emperor qinshiwang... woots, so loving and thrushering!!!he called us to sit on the floor and he started talking. well i listened very damn attentively, and i heard three wrong ciyu used-_- is chu fa not cu fa and yupp lotsa wrong pronunciation and stuff, bluhh i was very amused and tried to swallow my luffters. and yepp i admire his one legged muscular calf. woots i m so gg to be lyk him:D
he is farnie-_- yupps and whoever will imagine doing actions in the midst of no where. and pfft, i did it. iit was so enriching.
tata
i lurve him
till his sawk dry

Ahchoo

2005-04-23T19:08:00.000-07:00

B;eaghx. AHHH CHhooooo Ahhhh Choooo!!! Gosh~ sneeze and sneeze and sneeze... untl my whole nose gna fall off any time-_- and after the nus talk refreshment. my tummy was lyk groaning in pain, throat was lyk so dry. and yeah i m feeling siccckkk...
Bahhh-_- hahah and yeah seline you are my kway tiao i m ur char mee.. Bwhahah
jiali and siying had officially be in the ggg club:D Cheers!
and yepps:) bahh dun feel lyk bloggin
Boonng
AHH CHooo

memories

2005-04-19T04:15:00.000-07:00

oh well.. crashed emotions-_- i always tot there were room for more and i always push myself to the horizons, hoping that one fine day, i can reach the sky and see the clouds within and hve a tast of success... But whenever i flapp my wings, i fall on the groud w a thud and yepp w fractured bones, deformed egos-_-
I really tried very hard, really... fer everything i do, i dont c y i shouldnt put in my best, so whateva there is infront of me, i put in my 101 percent. thinking that so long i did my best, i wouldnt regret. but whats left fer me now? returned disapt test papers, oh yay and thanks ms rashida fer thinking that i wanted to lie to you about my NAME. yepp i m joyce, but not in my birth cert,go check it out, i politely request... and i wouldnt lie about my own name. Thanks fer that undefined understanding. and oh yay you simply shattered my world when you ans my ques w inequalites answer... wow i get 13/25 fer ss... i dun really mind the sucky marks but hu ever noe i really try very very hard, and i meant real business, and wow... i fell dwn yet again. dun tok about that animore... fcking hell demoted.
i simply want to prove myself... i did last yr, proving to all those tchers that deemed me as a terror, i worked real real hard, and yup i got wad i achieved in academic aspects.. and now that i came to 307, it is yet another challenge-_- i tired luhh... hu cares i get gd grades, hu cares i did well.. cmon look back ten yrs dwn the road, we have done nothing but mugging and wasted our years in getting involved in the two sided society. it's rather tough eh
table tennis- i went todae w a gd mindset fer my individuals' . i can say i trained really hard... but hmph nvrm...
i feel useless at this moment, jus lyk a saturated elephant in the acidic jar. are other people too clever, too good, or izzit is me hu is too lousy too stupid?
endless crawl to the reaching line---
have anyone ever spared a thought fer the fallen sportsmen hu go home empty handed with no regonition and credits fer their efforts shown except fer their dented, deformed egos??
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
and yepp zen:) i knew it was you hu tagged on my board at the very beginning:D haha frm the tone you tagged, i knew you couldnt put whatever it happened.. but somehow i really wanta noe what happen during *that period* to me, it really ended very very abruptly. and i can never stop my imagination and guesses frm this. i admit i dun have the courage to ask them. neither do i have the courage to ask myself what exactly occurs... and i sincerely wanto apologise to you fer the mental and physical dent you faced... i noe a simple sorry cant explains everything... sometime i thought if i ever meet you , i have lotsa things to say to you... but i dunno where to start at. all that i can think of you is the memories and the footsteps you left. i chose to adores the beautiful strikes you left and not the nightmares and tsunami it whelms and swirls in my heart. believe it or not... i wrote you numerous letters to you...but it simply cant be sent out,(dunno yr add) i wrote it and jus read it our loud hoping that you could hear whatever i wna say frm the bottom of my heart. believe it or not.. i took a bus to bedok out of nowhere and walked in and out of streets and rows of flats. i have no destination jus hope... the monkey bar:) i sat there on the swing myself and i chose to believe you were still my 'jie' hu really teng wo at that time... thats was me. the innocent me. and the naive me hu wants myself to enter into fantasy instead of devilish twirls. so i really hope you too, would discover your fantasy side of yourself... and together we emerge in the belief that memories are lightnings rays, colourful wan and not fatal wan...
the smile of your face, the hugg felt on my shoulders are the felt feel moments.
i believe in miracles and the spiritual bond btwn us. not forcing you to.. all the things i rmb... the last sentence you said to me which strikes it in my mind is " wo hui kan zhe ni zhang da"
and yupp i still live in the world with lots of masks, but i learnt to express it out and shout it out loud. my smile is never fading. is jus those hu understand what my smiles are meant fer and what symbolic meaning it meant... i m huizhuang and it will never change...
haha and bwahh dun worry... my life in ny is enriching. haha really have lots to tell you... and hope you too have lots to tell and share w me...
i m so sorry not to have the chance to congrats you on yr wedding.
i m sorry not to have a chance to wish you a happy birthday.
im sorry not to have a chance to wish you best wishes during festivals, special occassions.etc
i m sorry to cause so much to you..
i m sorry to be me...
i surrendered my thoughts to the nature wonders and i walked towards the spark of light where my life embedded there. bury the debrics as history, sweetens the thoughts treasure and appreciate present and anticipate future.
Zen...
sorry and you remained the position in my life i had you as
you remained as footsteps
you remained as beautiful moments
not a slightest dent nor deform counch
-Zhuang

zhuang

2005-04-14T06:10:00.000-07:00

oh thanks goodness we got our perfume!
and yeah!! pls go visit our webpage and join the essay competition lehh:D attractive prizes lehh

save me frm this agony

2005-04-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

Bahh simply save and hugg me pls.
i dun wan go sch
pfft and yeahh i dan xiao
Boo... i rather do lotsa CIP
and yepp hahah i so gna disgrace myself
during running.
i m bullshiting

dented egos-_-

2005-04-03T05:51:00.000-07:00

pfft i jus realised i have not updated lyk ages. and yepps mainly cus i seriously dun have the mood-_- i hate everything luhh... seriously, my only wrong that i did was to go to sch even thou i was sick. pfft how sucky can that be. now i m deemed to be a useless person with incapabilities and is said to " not coping well" thanks fer that. i appreciate it. really... it's really time to understand bout human nature that what happens have to be stagnant and by only controling yr thoughts then you can escape your own condemed world. but i really feel lyk crying and screaming my lungs out:( perhaps is time to appreciate pple that really concern me:/
yeah ho. thanks. thanks fer telling me in such a indirect way maybe meaning well not to hurt me. but yeahh... i m not as dumb as stoops luhh... and wadds wrong. i m jus saying wadd is the fact. no denial. instead of your encouragement... i received your comments that spur my whole week upside dwn. oh man, you are simply splendid. and yesh my parents are wadeva you think is it. not the way i can express to you. yeah thats all i want to say-_-
and wongie... sorry fer showing you my weaker side. or perhaps is saying and apologising to myself. i swear not to cry ever again. i feel useless dumb and not having the power and potential to be myself again. i hate that. i wna be strong, and be only honest to myself and not anyone else.
Gosh i m such a loser, failure everything in the world to say i failed as being huizhuang
kick me when i m feeling dwn and just swirl my world into a miserable wan
C'mon...
"cheer up:)"
yeah thats wadd my angel telling my brain
and obviously my devil was so much more influential and more powerful
Kicks away my devil-_-

amused

2005-03-23T03:58:00.001-08:00

haha my term progress report lyk totally ridiculous! Muahahah...
Wongie:
Huizhuang is a motivated learner who shows keen interest in the subject. She takes the initiative to ask questions when in doubt and she is always determined to excel.
zheng laoshi: 性格开朗，活泼，对人有礼。惠庄要多阅读，提高语文程度。 HAHA i AM POLITE:D
yeo soon geok:
Huizhuang responds well to lessons and class discussions. She is capable of learning independently.
ong siok cheng:
Huizhuang is animated and lively. She is enthusiastic and articulate.
Yep Pih tai:
Huizhuang is a keen learner with a persevering spirit. She will attain excellence in this subject in due time.
haha i am lyk damn amused:D
yeah man:D
i am such a good gurl:S
*Nods..*

i m amused

2005-03-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

At the beginning

2005-03-18T19:18:00.000-08:00

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start
Chorus
And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
Back to Chorus
Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
Back to Chorus
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you...

" -but you hurt me really deep... and pfft cant i just be lyk simply smiling purely? all i wanted to do is to make you proud, but i always failed. i feel lousy, really lousy. i m sorry you lost trust in me, you lost everything that i gave you. i dont know where you are now, the call you gave me made me raised my hope so much. that it simply jus shattered into pieces. where are you? i look at the charging cars, dampened world, i hate myself. and i always hate it when i hate myself.
takecare, i m seriously concerned, but i jus dont know how to express myself. i want to let you know i m always there, but i m scared.i m afraid i lose you. i m afraid i will nvr be by ur side. i m afraid i will nvr feel the warmth in you ever again. A smile with hidden sorrow... and thats me"

save me

2005-03-18T05:36:00.001-08:00

give me a break! i m dying. i have CME to do. i have Maths hmwk to do. I have passionata to do. i have LOTSA MORE THINGS TO DO> SO ANYONE PLS COME AND SAVE ME.. and yupp i m sick. running a fever, gosh i m dying... and yeah glad and joyous you lyk our cards.. haha :D

save me

2005-03-18T05:36:00.000-08:00

obs

2005-03-12T07:31:00.000-08:00

i will keep this in my heart. i mean foreva, seriously. "good judgement comes from experience but usually experience comes from poor judgement..." heyy, i deeply have my soul rooted to this quotation hokkay. i simply jus link all the daily life things, including my failure, my setbacks and practically everything that makes me feels extremely lousy and that quote ssimply makes me feel very consoled and yupp catch me thru my heart and pats me with an encouraging smile... oh man, and i lurve pk duo duo hokkay, inspiring, funkeyy, funnie and lotsa more. yepp bet kurt lurve her totally man! heyy read on kaiz? i gna crapz but yesh crapping needs skills and so pls appreciate my crapping skills. MUAhah pfft i m seriously crapping-_-

woke up in the morning packed my bagg last min. go sch hand up my hmwk,kuo scolded me fer lyk not hurrying when i m lyk running lyk a dogg bck to audi. fine, we sat bus go jetty, realised that 307 kena residential, damn blardy sad lolx. *hates it* feel lyk gg home immed. met PK. went to look ard in the obs school,to me PK nagged alot during first day, but hmm now that i think bck, her words are GOLDEN OK> yupps followed by an useless medic tolk, which me and jiali aka SPOILT BRAT was playing when harlo>!>! we are fello medic,nice siying went to copy dwn notes fer our reference, MuaCks. went bck to slp, cant slp man! i miss my bed. yupps ferget to tell ya, me and jia li are SB President. haha

learnt some skills lyk belaying and played lotsa games. oh ya have PT too! the air was sho nice and it was the most ideal air to jogg man! yeah learn how to capsize and it was sho fun:D yeah man! nothing much.. jus kayak into campsite 2 and yesh we hur ferget to bring PEGS fer basha. lyk haha amusing. mosquitoes lurve me jus lyk my mum lurves me. they kiss me so many times that i ran out of blood
*squeezes all our thingys to the bin* i mean we really blardy hell effing put in effort to squeeze and yesh we helped boseng to pull out the kayak boat, and we started to kayak the WHOLE ISLAND:D we DID IT! I KNEW IT:P and heyy KURT! I M VERY PROUD OF YA ALL! GOOD WORK MAN! and i felt a sense of achievement, being able to make a difference and sorry guys jiali and i pedal lyk madd when we were fellow expedition leaders.haha sho sucky man but admit it, We RAWK YEAH
go trekking:D Go quarry:D *with monitor lizard* was nice and yesh i m lurving it! and yesh hyper me stayed to tok to siying, candice, pee hua and tingyi till 145am while they are doing sanctuary duty, and someone pls slaps me! I pfft slept at 245 or sth lyk that when i was suspose to be on my very own duty. kaiz dude i m sorry:D yesh:D
last day... sad sad very sad and xtremely sad. went to learning room 3 and we spent all our last luffters there.. had inspiring moments... and heyy peeps thou i look abit "keesiao" but i m seriously and really touched by some of the thingys we pple did as a group, PK small talk, stories etc and yupp memorable moments. all good things always have to end, jus a matter of time and yepp most imptly we started it nicely, we also wish to end it with a beautiful heartfelt moments.and yepps huggs and kisses to PK & fellow kurt mates. hope PK and Vivian lurve our cards and thanks them lotsa fer everythingy they did fer us.

we sat the boat, our transport bck to ny, bck to the reality , bck to the world, bck to the world that we once hated. full of hmwk,, endless stress. but i learnt that the real obs and test had jus started. keep on gg and have a positive mindset.thts essential to the peak of sucess... sat on the boat. PK went bckwif us too... ohmy goodness.. i looked back the island, i simply cant stop looking at it, the nature , the beautiful moments immed gushed bck into my mind. i took a peep at PK, kurt mates and the sea, our efforts our moments. hot tears jus streamed dwnwards. sorry peeps if i was the one hu started the crying trend... and yeah, PK said" zhen xi xian zai suo yong you de..." gosh i couldnt hold bck my tears... i let it flow and make it the droplets to the sea and the existence of kurt 'march 05.
i lurve kurt.obs. PK and yepp i truely became stronger...

GO VISIT

2005-03-04T22:14:00.000-08:00

HEYY PeEps!!! kindly go visit our SIA WEBPAGE!!! BWHAAH ok?!?! and do take part in the competition:D Thanks ya
www.romancingsg.bravehost.com

i hate it when i hate myself

2005-03-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

i feel extremely lousy now...i mean really at the wits end-_- and bahh smone pls enlighten me, i tried sho hard, mugging fer days and nights which lasted weeks to achieve the aim of having good grades and the least to prove that i m truely worthy and meet the criteria or perhaps the characteristics of being in 307. but bahh i did none of them... useless me, i almost flung my chi when i tot i was SUSPOSE to be good at that. and yar noe the feeling of being lyk nothing in ur class except a filty stepping stones fer those gems? bahh i feel terrible, really luhh. i m gd at lyk NOTHING-_- hows that? and i cant give up, neither can i carry on w a confident self. and i hate it when i hate myself luhh, how badd can that be... i feel restrained from this endless mugging periods, and ten yrs dwn the road when you look back, you have no childhood, beautiful memories, jus been sloggin and sloggin and all the memories are created frm nothing but the triumph or failure you have gotten in ur studies or in sch. i may sound angsty but this is really a fact ad the truth. To me, gg to sch, it's lyk another torture esp during bsp when all i did is to sit at my seat and fill up the class seats.Bleaghx, i m lyk a small fish in a bigg pond and vry soon i would be a drop of water in the bigg sea and very very soon i would jus evaporate and tsk disappear. gosh izzit they are too fast or i m too slow, izzit they are too clever or i m too stupid, izzzit they are too

2005-02-26T00:52:00.000-08:00

my shoulders aching lyk mad

wad?

2005-02-23T06:02:00.000-08:00

i lost lyk 10 bucks todae in a small bet which i tot it would be harmless... 5bucks to char, 1 buck to meijie, and two ice cream to bert. four bucks to liting.blezaghxxand my shoulder is totally aching. gosh it SERIOUSLY in pain!!! i think cus i fa qiu lyk sho bigg action wa!!! and very very pain k!! i can hardly move my shoulders.haha rite now i m in my bro hostel, i m lyk sho excited, staying over nite there,. yeah man! this is lyk much better thatn ny hostel, thou his room lyk smaller but oh man its sho much nicer:D

mockingbird eminem

2005-02-19T01:03:00.000-08:00

Eminem, Intro:
Yeah I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about? You got me
Eminem, Verse 1 ( Eminem Mockingbird Lyrics ):
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
While I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had I can see you're sad,
even when you smile, even when you laugh I can see it in your eyes,
deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusin you Daddy's always on the move,
mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growin up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this’ll all just be a dream
( Eminem Mockingbird Lyrics ): Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We fear how we feel insideIt may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
Verse 2 ( Eminem Mockingbird Lyrics ):
It's funny I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em I'll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryin to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre And flew you and momma out to see me But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me Then you started seein daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here I like the sound of that, yeah It's got a ring to it don't it? Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus ( Eminem Mockingbird Lyrics )]Outro ( Eminem Mockingbird Lyrics ):
And if you ask me to Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
Ima give you the world Ima buy a diamond ring for you Ima sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
Ima break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

smashed into pieces

2005-02-18T06:03:00.000-08:00

i feeling lyk a worm. gosh crowling... i dun understand y i m in this despair, in this misery and in this sulky world of only the best survives. oh gosh, is ny trying to supress our talents by giving us these effing scares. pfft, i hate this feeling. feeling lousy and yepps absolutely.i gna simply and jolly well flung my bio and maths. i swear. i dun mind failing you noe, but the part that i really tried and i seriously tried my to myEXTREME. and gosh you would never understand the part when you put in yr best and the results are all lyk SHITY! yupps my egos are dented. ouch and i aint gg to forgive myself fer letting myself dwn each time gosh noe hows the feeling of feeling incapable? and yupps useless. gosh i think this is lyk pfft fcky-_-
and yepps wongie is cute luhh, she actualli noes our code word. Muahah i m amused.
and yeah i jus realised that i should be more responsive during class contact time during sabrina lesson. hmm guess she is quite piss w me, but hmm nvrm wadeva-_-
and yupps i m lyk quite happy, at least this yr,i felt appreciated. yepp man!
suck to the tests and shoo go away!

BOWAAHH

2005-02-10T05:33:00.001-08:00

yepps tis sat gg ms sam's house:D let's c... now that we have more pple gg.. aint it lyk merrier? then we can play majong and haha gamble:D haha about 15 pple gg...> sheila plus 3 more seniors, audrey, carmen, xinwei,tifen,leyi,lixuan,seline,may. hmm yupps did i miss out any>? K bowahh, dun think i m watching fifty first dates le, cus it starts at 7pm and i got guitar lesson. Boo screams man! yepp but nvrm:D boo.. i m lyk sho dead luhh.. i m in this hyper mood that i m not ready fer sch and everything and worse still having three tests to welcome me bck to sch isnt anything farnie or great. hmph-_- i shall jus write "i want to go bai nian" on my test scripts fer my answer. boo:( Yeah toodles... *off to my hyper mood to collect my angbao:)*

BOWAAHH

2005-02-10T05:33:00.000-08:00

I f e l l i n l u r v e w i t h y o u Happy New Year

2005-02-08T16:42:00.000-08:00

yesh Happy New Year dudes! and my new year resolution is to be good gurl which i always did:D And yupp do great in sch work~ plus cca.. Bwahh
heyy i m excited luhh... we are gg mrs ho house to bai nian. suspose to go mrs wongie house too... but she said she was NOT AT HOME> bwahh everyday?? haha unless she goes honey moon luhh.. but bahh i cant see little wongie but haha i m gg to see remis/rennis. oops spelt correctly? bwahh yepp.. mrs ho says she is free on sat and we are gg in the morning ok> cus c div got trng in the afternoon? Bwahah yeah then later can go orchard:D and watch fifty first dates. oh man i m getting excited:D yupp.. hmm wait let me comfirm huse gg.. and wear skirt ok> audrey, carmen, xinwei, seline,tifen...... gosh i jus realise we oli have about six comfirm gg wan. Blaeaghxxx.. nvrm i m sure alot more:D kk.. Happy CNY! yeaps M U A C K S!

m y w o r l d

2005-02-07T06:24:00.000-08:00

yepps give my darling bedder a bigg hugee kiss.. m U A c K s!!!!! yesh now i lurve my template man! at least the tagg board can be seen yeah:P
yupps i m seriously suffering frm sabrina that witch 's spell and torture aniwan wna joins me to employ a wizard or sth lyk that to Bwahh make her vanish!!! kaiz.. i aint gg to tok bout sabrina animore. she is jus a ~!@#@$# Bwahh and yupps i wna go wongie house to bai nian. but i jus realised how irritating i was luhh.. i should jus remain as calm as i can. boo k hannpy chinese new year!

forget it

2005-02-04T16:27:00.000-08:00

to change:, i used to be.. the reason to start over new. and it;s all becus of you... bwahh i aint happy at all luhh. facing this lyk almost everyday-_- and no one really appreciates me at all. wadeva luhh
wongie rawks my day. and jasmin forming a anti councillor group haha. jasmin is sho farnie luhh. she rawks man!we are the magic shot bandit:D sabrina aint farnie... she gna calls me huizhu too. BWAhh. and yupp the donation card thingy NOBODY wna donates. my mum was lyk HOkkay 2 bucks ok? and i will take FOREVA to have 150 bucks. boo. pfft and i decided to mediate during this cny .. i m rather sick... keeps falling sick-_- and very giddy.. bwahh dun feel lyk bloggn

gosh

2005-01-31T07:25:00.000-08:00

bwaH... tmr has chem test and here i m slacking away luhh... bish. yepps... oh man i m in lurve w my wongie... she sho nice hokkkay? i mean she is lyk the oli teacher hu smile at me luhh.. when all the tcher think i hav att prob and numbness on the cheek. lyk wadeva. yupps i m sho amused by to day special interest. oh man i lurve vigorous activities and yupps dance is a form of art so we mus appreciate it:D yepps i m bery bored. pfft and i thin k sth is wrong w my stomach. hmm everymorning i will have aching stomach jus after my breakfast. maybe i contacted acidic stomach and yupps perhaps a broken tube. gosh i m dying. say you lurve me now. and Boo i vomit blood that day luhh.. gosh and yupps i m off to bed b4 all my chem stuff is gone frm my head...

screwed. a nobody.

2005-01-27T04:17:00.000-08:00

bwahh i m so discouraged luhh.. i suck at everythin! i have uncontrasting characters to pple who surname ZHENG. jus lyk zheng lao shi... gosh everywhere i go She's hauting me... i hate her luhh... i got lyk 40 fer my compo upon 70>? and wadd? a jus pass fer my compre. bleaghx and she was lyk angry w me fer not bringing my wksht and to the GEPERS she was lyk:"mei guan xi!" i hate her! i m growing red. very red. and yupp she jus a blardy ***** wadeva... and the next thing i m screwed is that i really dunno wadd i m doing luhh in tt. really... seriously, i feel reducdant. and yupp but i m lyk hyper!!! yeah... i simply lurve trng:D and yush tamp trng is sho fun luhhkaiz nvrm. but i still sucked. save me luhh i dun wan to be under that zheng woman class. gosh i m sho discouraged that i feel lyk crying. Sobz...

joyce

2005-01-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

Boo.. and yupp today have health screening... boo my left eye is 09 luhh and haha my rite eye is perfect eyesight:D but BOO i hate the nurse kaiz.. i oli dunno how to read the las line of the las number and she gave me that. not that i care, but i simply wan a perfect eyesight record luhh.. Heck luhh and yupps trng todae:D i having trng in tamp too.. sho fun:P and yepps huse the fake gibson? Bwahhhhh -_- and yupp i m really stressed up. i gna quit sch man! my mum wans me to go shopping w her, but BOO.. and yupps my mother was so funky kaiz! she was saying:" Aiyohh ur skirt so long! you grow shorter arh? can you fold ur skirt or sth?" MUAHAHAH i m amused. i lurve my mummy man! MuaCks and yupp i lurve all of you!

h u m i l i a t e d

2005-01-19T01:21:00.000-08:00

yupps today i ate poridge w tiffany, jamin, jiali and siying:D Yupps it was total horrid man! jamin's porridge got the auntie's PUBIC HAIR> HAHA and yupp i jus couldnt make myself eat any more not even a sip. it tastes HORRIBLE> and all thanks to tiffany and jasmin GOOD recommendation:D and yupp i m lyk running everyday now.. w jasmin. hey aint i lyk growing sexxier each day> Bwahhi sound lyk exact bimbobut lyk WadeVa. i dun care-_- yupps you noe wadd?!?! DARLING sabrina thinks i m PAI. lyk wadeva. and wadds wrong w wearing Pe shirt lyk fer a moment and yepp i was lyk totally engrossed in that stupid physics wksht w a wholesome Useless tcher who toks lyk w ancient words!>?! and yepp i conclude that she doesnt noe how to teach and poor me has to figure out MYSELF. hows that. i m dying, but nvrm i m sure i can di it w/t these tchers:D yupps and hehe sabrina has lyk damn BRIGHT EYES> she saw me wearing a very light grey coloured bra. hmm.. thats badd she has good eyesight but at the same time it;s baddd! Bwaha.. boo i m such a guai gurl luhh and she still says wadd give me 1 month to prove myself?> Pls, i m too guai compared to the days when i m in 208. i m lyk a TOTAL FREAKY FREAK NOW. oh no i hate tis life! narh i have NO LIFE NOW-_- fine... i shall show her i m guai. those who think i m a little angelic gurl pls breathe and claps! yupp good gurls and boys. thats all folks! i did my class duty roster and that joker tiffany hMPPH din do anything. jerry gna eat tom one day! yupp i m a gd gurl

zhuang

2005-01-17T04:35:00.000-08:00

tis mrning was suspose to meet tiffany , jasmin and siying at 645am.. but i was lyk damn late. yupp heyy seline i m really feeling damn creative luhh.. BWAHAH.. and yupp to dae trng lyk okay. kaiz we are gg to have a wadd QIN COACH. Bwahha sound lyk qin shi wang. but nvrm he has great contributions to the society.. but maybe he will bury us alive abd burn all our books. kaix i m being lame.
yupp hi passer by yoou sound rather sweet but i seriously dunno hu you are. bluhh and yupp nvrm zhuang says HI to you
i m gg to be an enthu freak. SAy hi i m doing community service

i t s a l l r i g h t . . .

2005-01-16T08:25:00.000-08:00

Bwhaah HAPPY BURFDAE SELINE> yupp was lyk pfft i cant go trng todae, then can send u ur present on the date itself.but bleaghx i think i aint gg to every sun trng liaoz... cant make it:I Boo i hav drama lesson and i cant pon lyk everyweek rite. sho sad.. so tats means i gg fri trng de.HaHa yupp it's lyk midnite and tmr hav sch and i m still here. i ought to be spanked.Pfft kk:"It's a l l r i t e joycey:D be yourself be your somebody..." gosh i m toking to myself. but yepp i m the princess. bow to me. Bleaghx i m crappin. got to sleep. nitez every1

disintegrated into many parts of falling stars

2005-01-14T18:42:00.000-08:00

i fell into a puddle of water, looking at the reflection of myself. i start wondering who I was. the real identity... i managed to get the ans after much time contemplating. i m jus a nobody... nobody that makes a somebody to only my family and my dogg. which means nobody to anyone out there;
is all so fake. every aspects of it. wadeva i feel lyk damn insulted and i aint gg to get invovle in it animore and yepp i shall close my heart. -_- do you get the feeling of being in somewhere you suspose to be but NOPE you get the kick and ass out of it knowing nothin but jus a person to fill the space? Yepp i m reductant luhh... i mus well jus -_- you noe open the door and say my lass goodbye.
BLEAHGX. i noe how minor and superficial i m.
not thru words but thru feelings.
yepp i m a nobody and somebody only to pple that loves me:/

was thinking to go toapayoh or tampines to train:D and my parents agreed. but have a damn prob. so it failed my plan and yupp i m bck to a nobody-_-
i m jus myself and myself are thy.so i m gg to pick myself up and not gg to try my whole hell of it to be in ----yesh. i m tired. leave me alone. or perhaps abandon me

toodles life's lyk that.

2005-01-10T22:42:00.000-08:00

Pfft i cant stand it !@~!@# gosh i m gg any crazier! gosh my lovely class is lyk sho nIcE and yepp FuN~!@!~!@# HAHA! lyk wadeva... i m seriuosly not prepared to undergo such a bigg change in my life that i m gg to library, doing lyk some MOST REDUCTANT wkshts which i think it's freaking useless! most imptly, DURING RECESS> fine~ meet joycey, the bonkers here. Screwed i mean.hmm let me elaborate wadd happened today. HORRIBLE!
fine it was our iNtErEsTiNg bsp lesson w a MoSt CaRiNg teacher w her ENRichING teaching meterials about compo. wadeva~ cant blame agile and lively gurls lyk tiffany and I to start on some brains cells relaxing games lyk tictaetoe in her class~ but fine we havent even get started on our game! we oli drew lyk one circle and cross each and here comes the boom:"NI MEN ZAI ZUO SHEN ME?!" haha, tats was hmm loud, i mean loud enuff to catch my attention? yupps she was rattling on and on, and say she will compain to lyk some bigg shots and call our parents and stuff-_- hmm... k, maybe she indeed lyk PREPARED ALOT>>> when her wkshts fer sheng ci has oli 4 words. Wow, kaiz in an y aspects i shall be more sensible and apologise to her. but hmph tiffany, the bigg joker were SUSPOSE to accompany me but was called by mrs wong. was farnie. but anw, fine, no more tictaetoe fer me, perhaps some simple andnot obvious relaxing methods will do.
retarred

bonkers

2005-01-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

Bwahh i m madd... BONKERS!!! my brain is not working.sriously... and i feel no sense of belonging in NY. wadeva luhh... i made a wrong choice... i have to live w it. no choice.

bwahh i m dying

2005-01-04T03:54:00.000-08:00

sick. no mood. suX! can my class lyk speak or sth>>>!/ damn quiet. hmph serious. i will train real hard

just admit that u hated me all along.c'mon is so fake

2005-01-02T03:24:00.000-08:00

today went trng at nus with my ONE AND ONLY BIGG LAO PO sihuan. muahah and yepp w audrey, carmen, tifen, may, seline. yupp their halls were lyk Fffing bigg thou is sorta turns out to b rather irritating to me cuz of the fact that we spent 1/2 the time trying to catch and run after the balls.yepp but i still appreciate the spacious hall they had and the opportunity to go there at least.kk, played doubles w some uncles who usually go there and play too... but well lost-_- 2-3 haha yar, seline was lyk keep saying she was damn screwed and everything... but frankly lahh... if seline feel that she is screwed, i would be definitely lyk screw-est?!?! hmm... but i would never let myself ever have the dejected feelings again. i said again becuz i used to have that, feeling useless and such, but i learnt that it simply no use and yupp bundle urself up lyk a mouse that saw a cheese but fear that the cat may appear anytime. actualli the main factor to ease and liberate yourself to play w passion and not burden is purely Y O U R S E L F. yupp i weaved my dented ego and i promise not to let it crack eva again. so yupp total crap but well... very useful and meaningful to me.
hmm then later went fer lunch, haha we saw sme water polo guyys in the pool trng luhh and joker me when to shout:"hi SEXXY!" haha heyy mus say that i felt bitchy immediately but yepp i did it wholely fer the sake of amusement.narh they turned me off-_- my dogg dick hair is much more beautiful.Haha k that uncle was lyk giving us sme enlightening tok thou' i felt that SME of that truely make sme sense. i repeat SME of them, means another whole part was erhem-_- haha, kk... then went hme and DID MY MATH HMWK!!!oh man!i cant believe it... i ENJOYED myself. really, haha. k tats bout it. i will be a little good gurl tmr.cuz first impression are often impt:Dwhich means fer the second and third and... impression, i m gg to heck care! haha!

i simply detest u. u treat me lyk a puppet, lyk a dumbo who always have to agree and compromise w u. u cme to me when you need me and shoo me off lyk a fly when you dun need me. thanks fer that~ and u gave me that look and atitude when i say things u dun agree. HARLO!> i have my mind, my very own mind. so f off luhh. u were quite my buddy last time, at least fer this two yrs? but now i feel sho alone and yupp thrown away lyk ur thrash. stop putting on ur mask. tear it apart! i want to say:"ur soul is disintegrating and i never trust u again" u make me damn lousy and i gotta force myself to smile infront of u-_- i m tired. seriously tired...

A good beginning ensures sucess with efforts

2004-12-31T02:36:00.000-08:00

yepp i shall be hyper happy today. cuz i will spend my last day of 2004 with a smile a bigg smile :D *cheers* and everyone pls SMILE:D:D:D good boyy and gurl! k now i shall start listing down wadds my resolution fer the new year 2005!!! heyy not in order of importance. wadeva cmes to my mind, i juz write:D Bwahh here it goes:
1. to be a little good gurl hu doesnt cause anymore troubles in school and yepp i cheng shou le:)
2. to obtain vast improvements and achievements in cca, nytt. to prove myself useful:D and yepp play really serious and hmm positive mindset to any arrangements i m put to.
3. as usual, significant grades in school work.
4. haha must get excellant for my conduct! i dun care!!! joanne loo BOO!!! gave me a good oli and my cme get lyk wadd 'B'?!?!? lyk everyone else get 'A'?!?!? oops did i just say i wanted to be good little gurl.haha
5. not be sho piggy thou it lies in nytt personality! mauahha i m fat lahh! sho must exercise more and have muscles:D kk i sound lyk sme -_-''' aniwae not to be a pigg lah
6. Dun sleep sho much. pple say a third of a person's life is spent sleeping. but i think i spent 2/3 of my life sleeping.so yepp no more of that Gurl!
7. to bathe my dogg more often and not let her be lonely animore. hmm i m such a devoted owner. *bow to me*
8. a simple nice gurl who don't demand much but just pure happiness and be loved by my family.
9. determine to do the things i want, and yepp dont ever let opportunities slip. muz shine :D Bwahh...
10. be joyce and simply huizhuang and just me.
WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005! YEPP JUST BE YOURSELF AND PLEASE DO MY ROUTINE OF SMILING AGAIN!!! *SMILE AND SAY CHEESE NOW!*

they are all gone.

2004-12-30T01:27:00.000-08:00

boo i know i cant really express myself but bwahh i m juz gna say it.boo i think my -auntie's- whole family is gna be smashed. i mean they are missing and frankly never to be found again. perhaps it's god's will to leave their youngest daughter on Earth to have their hopes on her and surviving on her own. all alone. i really want to voice out to all my loved ones that i really lurve them:) and yepp to be loved and you love sm1 is simply pure happiness. so pls treasure the v moment you have... and appreciate the things ard you.face it w a smile. "when you are angry or sad, you lose 60 secs of happiness you had in ur entire life"
kk, now change topic. i in my dad's office now:) hmm, today nytt gg sentosa izzit. yupp really sorry that i really cant make it. and yepp i would to take this chance to cheer everyone up kaiz? and huggs to my seline...
kaiz everyone pls cheer fer the coming yr 2005 and live it to the fullest! *claps and fireworks!*

Promise me

2004-12-28T02:42:00.000-08:00

i think my cooking skills lyk sux?? yupp i attempted to cook chicken but it turned out chao da! but this time i din spoilt the pan/pot. and nope i decided not to do my maths hmwk. it's bery tiring. and i m lyk scribbling all over.i cant even c wadd i m writing. Boo but many thanks to my Ms Seline Chan and Ms Bert Wong. muahha i m gg to slp fer the rest of the hols. horray! 5 more days to sch reopen. bwahh i m sorry but i seriously cant go sentosa. my mum is sho afraid of the tidal waves which is -_- and hmm one of her fwen which i tot is my relative were missing in the island. Bwahh but hmm the auntie is quite close to us lahh.. quite sad, think their whole family are gone juz lyk that, except the smalllittle gurl who lost both her parents. Gosh! wadd a day to happen> and yupp hope everything bcks to normal and pray hard fer more survivors:D

u s e l e s s

2004-12-27T23:46:00.000-08:00

U S E L E S S. T O T A L L Y U S E L E S S. I A M N O T A P U P P E T B U T A G U R L W H O W A N T S T O S M I L E.N O T A S M I L E W I T H H I D D E N S O R R O W S.

we should learn to appreciate how fortunate we really are. pple out there are struggling, clinching fer the light of hope and we should b at the least feel lyk some lucky star being able to live this very moment. bwahh -_- very sorry fer all those victims and hope that the death toll doesnt increase. send my prayers.

today suspose to go fer this khs table tennis gathering.yepp bwahh but as usual i m lyk
u s e l e s s and i m easily defeated by several hurtful stuff. i really miss them lyk alot lahh... seriously. think i m gg to cry. when my jiao lian plus many juniors called me on the fone, oh man i m gg to faint.almost cried.actualli the worst part of this whole thing is that i m available but i simply cant go. i noe i m u s e l e s s. i cant even make a simple request to my very own mum. i think i m gg bonkers, and y muz history affects one's life? how many millions times i got rejected and had a dented ego, and i m still suffering from it. when can i eva tell her my real feelings? u s e l e s s. t o t a l l y u s e l e s s. n u m b ed.
"can you just let me go? i need my air, my very own space to breathe and gimme my mind to think. i dont want to live in the shaddows, it's all over."
i made a promise that next year i m gg. surely.Promise
i am not going to be your gurl anymore.

l e f t o u t

2004-12-27T01:43:00.000-08:00

kk i admit i m lyk rather anti social.Hmph... wheres the active joycey?!?!*searching* *documents deleted*Bwahh juz dun feel as comfortable as lass time liao. Shucks-_-
today hav trng, was lyk damn tiring, cuz gotta wa tiao and all that. and yepp i m tired... lyk well, they went to may's house i think. bwahh sho far, sho i didnt go. i mean ,,my house is practically FAR FRM EVEROne! so i m luk always sho sianz diao k i admit i m lyk totally anti social and all that. perhaps simply not the correct pattern and shape which fit in the dented holes. sch gna reopen liao~! yepp and seline makes me feel zibeii cuz i aint enthu in doing my maths hmwk since is lyk not graded or even gg to hand up. i noe lahh i m lyk sho paii. but tats me... grr-_- nxt yr all the secs4 gna bia fer their O's liao. confident that they will perform well:D sho muz jia you k? and yepp i m gg to miss all of them... weiwei aka wei ge. haha carmen and audrey plus plus...lotsa more lahh. hmmph tok but my anti social ness, i seriously dun feel lyk gg to sentosa-_- cuz i blahh i lyk the sun but i hate the part after suntanning or got burn, very nan shou and sm more sch gonna reopen liao~ shd mediate more at hme. haha.. it's time fer me to make a decisive decision fer the things i really want and not always be the stars behind the sun... Probably it will take time to find back the active joycey lahh but bwahh being alone makes you contemplate more and know more about ur environment contemporary developments and intrigues yr self integrity. smhow, i really wish to speak out what i think, but always shun by myself and indeed it's often remained unreaveled. silence in golden.perhaps.
heyy dunno wna go fer tmr the gathering not. but it's kinda farnie lahh Bwahh and yupp looking forward to wed. i m gna get my roxy/adidas jacket. *waves* and yupps *search fer joycey the normal wan*

Xmas is today! today is xmas!

2004-12-24T23:10:00.000-08:00

MERRY XMAS! yupps i finally know roughly how to play majong liao~ muahah praise me! erhem though a bit lyk tortise and makes cynli yawns several times. and yupp thanks to all my 'shifu' MUAHHA and yepp yesdae party was pretty fun though it doesnt really have a bery elaborated atmosphere. muahah my nuggets are nice i tell you! bow to me. i m the great cook! and yepp the spagetti was nice lahh and we are really piggs to finish the whole two packets. thanks to zhiyuan fer starting that zhong ji mi ma. yupps we finished. muahah yepp using underhands methods. HAHA to let zhiyuan eat. and my darling sihuan came, and she forgot my kiss as my xmas present. Muahah... yepp she was a greater cook than me:D but yepp I shall convinced myself that it was a xmas party! thanks shelia and family:) fer lending ur kitchen to us. muhahah boo i dun feel lyk blogging. BWAHH

-misunderstood-

2004-12-23T07:07:00.000-08:00

santa claus has flew to the wrong poles... shall make it short. i want to have an enjoyable xmas! i would lyk to say that the previous entry toking bout the soul was purely NOT presuming to anyone in NYGH and not to say in NYTT.
sho if anyone really misunderstood, i m here to offer my sincere apology to have the wrong sense of intution that perhaps others may take it as a senerio that hasnt flew thru and aspects of my right mind. therefore, i m sorry.
and pls dun feel that you are drowning. it makes me feel lyk a struggling weed entangled in the polluted sea given out by ships and commercial buildings which simply direct me to be cut off frm the struggling weeds.
look at that rainbow in the sky. its fading away with ur sense towards me. let it shine...

truely and purely delighted.

2004-12-23T01:34:00.000-08:00

well, those officers lurve my ambition as a farmer :D Sho yepp:D happy, fin, i shall be a farmer next time.

and yupp hope to break the barrier-_- maybe in simply runs in the trend but hmph.
aniwae, heyy a lot of my juniors are coming to ny!!! i m sho happy! yepps finally sm1 in my mu xiao cme to ny. and haha muz b i motivate them to cum de.*ego* btw, i m sure that they would surely not be the nxt batch of unattended fraggs.
and i simply think that some pple refuse to admit their flaws and could not hold ani responsiblity. and stop that act in front of everybody that you are angelic but you are juzz a pile of shit -_- c'mon you think you are the lite star? and heyy aint yr resposibility to inform the others>? and you call urself the 'leader; of the group. BLAHH! k, u juz spoilt my whole mood. FO and think about it... ure batch under u is purely hopeless and helpless. not to be mean, but this is the fact.

santa claus has been good to me

2004-12-22T19:19:00.000-08:00

i had two bbq in a row. no voice nw.and i think i ate several uncokked chicken wings... i tot hhk on was more fun but the other wan w marist got more food to eat plus i concluded that boys are a little violent. Bwahhhaha
santa claus granted my wish:D happy:D k, i muz apologise to my darling bedder, :char, sorrie lahh, i gota b a filial daughter. and yepp rabbit lurve you and you lurve rabbit. bwhahh n yepp my tagg board is creepy lahh can t c wad i m writing then muz highlite.boo-_- nxt tues having a gathering w my table tennis juniors. *elated* nvr c dem fer a lng time. and yupp i ate tomatoes these days. i think they rawk, go try it raw. delicious, it helps ure reproductive and circulative system plus you will have nic complexion. tomatoes are simpy yummy! joycey=tomatoes queen.
pure happy

santa claus, i m a good gurl this yr

2004-12-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

santa claus, dont you think i m a good gurl this yr? yepp i m. santa claus promise me to gimme presents. yupp these are my wishs santa claus. and hope you grant and give me ur blessings. yupp i m sure i m a good little sweetie gurl this yr.you said gd gurls lyk me need to be praised and rewarded:D

1) grant me bsp(c) scholarship
2) have achievements in table tennis. i dun want to remain lyk tat-_-
3) to be a happy joycey. my family :D
things:
1) a jacket. i lurve that addidas wan. but make do w any
2) zen mirco
3) bagg
4) t.t bat ( i dun wan to share the same bat as HER-_-)
5) new blanket
6) paint my room
7) dogg food for my dogg. she lyk xmas too
8) one razor back shirt i saw. omg i m falling in lurve w it.
9) t.t shoes
10) ur love

-i m the queen of balls-

2004-12-20T01:50:00.000-08:00

yupp today hadd trng and then we will lyk spending time after trng to discuss bout the chalet and bwahh... rather erhem constructive ideas and yepp i jus find out that we were really lyk good at sidetrackin- Bwahh

Ms Sam came todae. yepp aint a rather pleasant day. she was madd with lyk us cuz she thing we were keeping secrets frm her. and yupp said we were interrupting her. well... Bwahh. thin kit was simply a misunderstanding. may was extremely not please and well she started ~!@#$%#@!~@ hokkay, but seriously smhow i think maybe we should respect ms sam lass~ hmm fine, no comments and yepp-_-
i m the queen of balls.
i m feeling sticky and narh i want to go escape.

zhuang

2004-12-16T20:02:00.000-08:00

*i m gg to give my best shot!* i promise, i dun want to stay in the state i m, i gotta do sth bout it. yepp! gimme ure blessing pls!
todae the end of the camp liao~

woots.

act with a smile

2004-12-15T18:16:00.000-08:00

i think often things go wrong when you pull a long face and yepp so wadeva u do act/add with a smile and yepp things will go hokkay:D believe in urself:P
yepp 2 more days b4 my broadcasting camp ends. fishballs lurve wearing red. -___-
i wanto eat my dogg up fer sniffing her mucus on my new clothes. thanks goldie! you are fabulous. and yepp i m all around with her mucus and saliva. sho yepp :D but i simply lurve my dogg, it's my source of happiness. heyy i sound lyk a loner, but nvrm. truely my good pal, a person/dogg to trust and yepp will nvr harm you. good i sound lyk a person selling doggs and introucing. fine enuff of that.
stoops char put password in her blogg. narh i think putting password is BwAh badd. BoO and char my fish ball is cuter than ur N-T-G
hahah...
seline you sick arh>
and yepp jy i will surely tell you the results;D
tats about it.
i lurve my dog
my dog lurve me
we lurve everybody.
and everybody lurve us
we are the dogg family.
and yepp i m extremely -_-
but my dog still lurves me

deep in tots...

2004-12-14T02:44:00.000-08:00

hokky... i m currently having this mediacorp camp... it was sorta fun. one shuai guy. fine~ i oli noe him as a fishball... but nvrm. bow to me, i m gna be sme unknown newscaster nxt time. Well if i ever make it. BoO but i dun think i m in line fer this, i think acting is still in my hands and abilities more than reading and stoning. yepp... enjoyed the camp fairly well... still has lyk 3 more days b4 the days me and fishball can b togetda.

heyy i think i m lyk really lack of confidence. well, come to think of it -suo zhen de-, i in ny is lyk really no cheng jiu lahh... *achievements* esp in table tennis and crap not to mention of waddeva stand i m. smtime, i eva think did i make the wrong choice to ny.sho i really really wish to have some cheng jiu gan. this Sat hav lian he zao bao comp! and boO cuz of e camp i cant go fer trng and all that. sho i really wish i wun lyk juz freak out. yepp wun b tt badd lah. Oh man~ please please please let me juz have my head above the struggling water. i really hate the feeling when yucks you cant do anything about it and juz c urself trample dwn. BwaH! toodles, *i muz have confidence* and everyone pls gimme ur lucky kiss to darling joycey! hmm hokkay it may sound stupid to jia you urself but here i m : " Huizhuang GOGOGO!!! You can do it!"
rite, i sound er... farnie~ but nvrm i lyk it.
C'mon let me have a chance to prove myself!
-a life of my own-

happy Burfae Pingx!

2004-12-13T04:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HUIPINGX!!!! say i lurve you please...

Oh man!

2004-12-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

argh i m gg to conclude that this is badd! well i TOT i was pretty relaxed after finishing that damn darn effing commonwealth essay which i faked that it is 1200 when is oli lyk 643 words. i hope my font and all look lengthy. yepp next. when i go look at bloggs i angrily realised that there ARE STILL MORE TO GO IN THE USELESS WORKBIN! and you call this a hols>!<@> yesh tis juz suck bigg time.. and i dunno wad the hell and Fffing thing they want us to do.>? write write and write. y no assignment call us to play as much as we can as hand it up on first day first term??? muahah then i will surely be top in class fer this category. aniwae, i m simply madd and isnt bery please with these HARDWORKING teachers! i shall not say further. -_-
hmm... i went to watch shutter todae with my mum and brother. it had been sho sho sho long since i watched a movie with my mum. kk, shutter is NOT A HORROR MOVIE> IT's JUS A SAD LOVE STORY! please... oh man! n i m touched rather... kk, go watch it. not scary i promise. really... it's juz the music and sound effect. but well, it's nice. go enjoy popcorn in the cinema lahh!
yepp i lurve sunday! my dad is cuming bck. Jy too!
hmm... it's 1235. betta siam b4 the day ends with roarring frm my mum.
toodles! Sux to dose hmwk! and well... i aint bothering to do any. i mean it. i m topping the class fer the most amt of play hrs. and yesh, joycey is anti hmwk...Shoo hmwk!
and yunning story was simply gross... -_- but i dun mind having the programme.
i gtg sleep
bye
have fun!

Gosh

2004-12-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

yepp i m all ERM>.. i juz read this oh man! the sickest thing i ever read.

lalala

2004-12-06T19:49:00.000-08:00

lalalala... i m bored. i m suspose to go watch kranks w squirtle todae, but PFFT i forgot to tell her yesdae when and where to meet and she forgot too-_- so well we both forgot then... muahah... so my day starts off with me waking up pretty early which id 1023!!! and yepp i tried to make myself a delicious breakfas sho i opened up my fridge and cooked wadeva is avaliable. eggs, prawns, vegs, minced pork,fish... *cookin in process*
Ended up i burnt the pot as usual. the fish wasnt totally cooked tasted exactly lyk sashimi. the eggs werent suspose to be scrambled and pfft the minced pork are charred.prawns heads was detached and never found... onli left the shell which i dunno y too-_- HEYY at least the vegs is nice!!! it's edible!Wheez...

PeRfEcT BoNd

no it's not perfect now. perfect bond.

here i am back again

k i shall blog

screwed

r 151 posts

i m back

be back

stinko shit

save me

2nd in china

flown away

it's over

torn

sentosa

snapple

reason to start over new

yups

bdae

Guitar Exam

wheehoo

crushed

qoho

moi bdae

bade wish

slacker

woots

what

ok

bsp camp

to you

hey

hey

ping pong xhat

screwed i have a blardy screwed life

yarh

woots i m sick

ok

yupps

flag day

Bwhah

Ahchoo

memories

zhuang

save me frm this agony

dented egos-_-

amused

i m amused

At the beginning

save me

save me

obs

GO VISIT

i hate it when i hate myself

wad?

mockingbird eminem

smashed into pieces

BOWAAHH

BOWAAHH

I f e l l i n l u r v e w i t h y o u Happy New Year

m y w o r l d

forget it

gosh

screwed. a nobody.

*****joyce*****

h u m i l i a t e d

zhuang

i t s a l l r i g h t . . .

disintegrated into many parts of falling stars

toodles life's lyk that.

bonkers

bwahh i m dying

just admit that u hated me all along.c'mon is so fake

A good beginning ensures sucess with efforts

they are all gone.

Promise me

u s e l e s s

l e f t o u t

Xmas is today! today is xmas!

-misunderstood-

joyce

zhuang